Bloody Memories
By: Seven Katherine bury

“All I remember is bloody memories”









































Bloody memories
By: Seven k. bury
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When i woke i was covered in blood, I screamed and then a man came in and grabbed me by the arms, he wiped off the blood and then he looked scared, I hesitated to talk but then i went with it. "What just happened and who are you?" He said nothing and that made me angry because i hate when people ignore me. I gave him a mean look and he looked away and said " Look, your in the hospital and I’m just the person who saved you when you fell into the river in the grand canyon. Your bruised up bad, and you got here an hour ago, your parents are coming so stay calm." It took me a while to
stop bleeding, and I was relieved. Now i had a tiny little crush sprouting from my heart to this guy who saved my life. When i turned on the TV, my mom came and told me my dad was with my sister telling her it was okay. The nurse told me I was going to be okay, even though I broke my leg. My mom cried and cried when she heard that. It was like if a brother died or something. While she was doing that I had this thought, of someone covered in blood saving me but it was not like in the river or something, it was in my bathroom. “Baby, the nurse said you’ll be fine after they put a cast on your leg. So do you want to go home and see your grandpa?” My mom said after the nurse cheered her up.
I hesitated because I really didn’t like my grandpa, but I don’t want to say that to him right after I broke my leg. I fell asleep and I was having this weird dream, it was like my thought I was covered in blood and so was the other person and we were locked up in my bathroom. There was a voice, that seemed familiar and it was so creepy too. We cried and suddenly the door smashed down and I woke up in total fear. “Aaaaaah!” I said. Then the dude who I have been seeing a lot, the one who wiped of the blood from me, he came running in the room and looked panicked. I could have gave him a heart attack but he seemed like that was impossible. “What the hell happened?!?” I looked shocked and I swear I peed on the sheets. “Well I had this uh bad dream, and it was weird because it was in my bathroom and I was covered in blood.” I said. “ Oh okay, It’s time for you to learn the truth, you weren’t in an accident in the grand canyon.” he said. I wanted to interrupt
But he went on “You were in your house and you tried to kill your self by telling a friend to help you and that voice well that was your dad telling you to come out. You drowned your self Julie……” I was embarrassed because he probably thought I was a dramatic freak right now. I hid under the covers and said “Go away, I want to be alone. I don’t want to talk to anyone right now so leave!” He got up to his feet and walked away without saying a word. I saw him outside talking to my mom and she was crying, I knew I did something horrible and I needed to fix it. “ I’m sorry miss barb she just needs therapy that’s all, the bills don’t cost much even though bankrupt came in.” He said to my mom who was still crying. I felt like it was all my fault, well it was and everybody hates me right now. I hid under the covers again when my mom walked in and said “Baby I’m sorry but your coming with me!” She pulled of the covers and grabbed my arm harder and tighter then she have ever done, it made me cry louder than her. She had this don’t blame me look in her eyes which made me say “ Mom,…….. Why didn’t they tell me the truth at first? Is there a big problem with telling me?” She gulped hard and the grip on my hand got even tighter. I knew she had a problem of answering that question so I didn’t comment on that.
When we got in the car we had total silence. “Mom No matter what happens I love you!” I said without thinking. She looked confused but in panic too, she have maybe thought I was going to kill myself again but I wouldn’t do that, would I? I pulled out my ds and started playing Mario kart and then my mom told me not to play that for no reason, but there’s a reason for every action. I did as she told but I think I may have put a little attitude because my mom just snapped and said “Now look, I think I’ve had enough! If you give me a little more attitude your grounded!” I was shocked in silence, I felt like crying but that would make her feel worse. I thought about my sister, I knew she was scared since she was only a 10 year old. I am such a bad big sister because killing myself? Seriously I am in last place for best role model.
When we got home my grandpa was outside waiting for me, I gave him a kiss and gave him a smile but I knew he was disappointed in me. I gave Rufus my dog a big hug and ran to my room. My room seemed different since I last saw it and it seemed way cleaner because I had no clutter in my closet and everything was organized. I threw my bag on the dresser and immediately jumped on my bed , it felt so good too. I fell asleep but had no dream and just laid there. I woke and ran downstairs, I knew my mom was making hotdogs. So I took a seat and waited for the food.
I ate my hotdogs then my chips, it was silent until my little sister Jen started blabbing about her school day today. I caught much of it like she fell and a boy kissed her and then my mom said “wow looks like you’ve been busy all day lets see how grandpa john’s day was.” My grandpa coughed to clear his throat and then said “ Well , I gave the good old dog Rufus some chicken and had a nap, then I called your grandmother to see if she wanted to come over and see you come home, but she didn’t answer the telephone.” he said. I hardly listened to anything else because I was lost in another thought. Of a boy I knew but don’t remember and noticed I hardly remember a thing except for what date it was… I ran to the calendar and “ Um are you forgetting something Julie?” my mother said. “Well mom it’s…. it’s…. May 7th! I’ve been in the hospital for a month?!?” I said yelling on the top of my lungs. “Look your mother is going through a lot and…..” my dad tried to finish until I interrupted. “Excuse me? I’m the one who just found out I have amnesia, that thing that makes you forget stuff! Also, I tried to commit suicide!” I breathed hard now. I ran to my room in tears and slammed the door. If I tried to kill myself… how did I break my leg? I thought. I think I just fell in the bathtub in the wrong position and that was it. So continuing from there, I flopped down on my bed and tried to think….. I noticed I can’t remember my teachers name, my crushes name, all of my friends names. I let out a loud wail and screamed inside my pillow. “Julie, I’m sorry, we were going to tell you but we didn’t want you to be so hard on your self. I’m sorry sweetie.” my mom said while she was entering slowly. I listen to her footsteps as she walked to my bed. She sat down and I heard her breathe hard, I started calming down as soon as she rubbed my back in a circular motion. “ Mom, what made me so mad? I mean like, for every action there’s a reason right?” I mumbled. “ I don’t know the exact reason but you said you ask Jacob out and he said he was with your best friend Jenna, you said you didn’t like him but that’s probably it.” my mom said even softer than her footsteps. “ Oh thanks mom..” I said “ Your welcome, just don’t tell Jacob it was his fault because it wasn’t it was nobody’s it just you loved him and that was it.” my mom replied. I nodded and she left the room. A couple minutes after she closed the door someone was throwing pebbles at my window. I looked down and saw Jacob and I about almost fainted. “Jacob what the hell are you doing here.” I said in panic because we might get caught and I fear of he might hurt me again. “ It’s okay Julie, I know why you tried to commit suicide, now hop on Swift my horse.” He said and I nodded. I opened my window higher and jump out, he caught me and I felt like he actually cared for me at least once. “ I’m sorry I was such a jerk Julie, I didn’t know how much you cared for me. Also how much I cared for you. Jen she only wanted gifts because she knew my father likes her but it still doesn’t seem right.” he said. He stopped Swift and planted a kiss right on my lips. I Pulled back at first but then went on with it. Gonna write more later