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 Posted: Mon Jun 16, 2008 8:54 pm
Sorry for my absence all, I have been going through some rough times in my life. Things havnt been going well for me, and I am not at the computer often, especially when im passed out somewhere, either way I will try to post here and there when I cn, again sorry for being gone, miss you all.
Much love and peace,
Rayler...
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Posted: Wed Jun 18, 2008 10:54 am
Oh dear...
That doesn't sound to herald much well, babe... You've been missed here. I'm so sorry things've not been well with you. If there's aught I can do, don't hesitate to say. Passing out tends to be liable for mysterious injuries, especially in unfamiliar territory. Be careful.
Best Wishes, Truly.
Zurah
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Posted: Wed Jun 18, 2008 9:33 pm
Zurah Oh dear...
That doesn't sound to herald much well, babe... You've been missed here. I'm so sorry things've not been well with you. If there's aught I can do, don't hesitate to say. Passing out tends to be liable for mysterious injuries, especially in unfamiliar territory. Be careful.
Best Wishes, Truly.
Zurah Passing out also hassed to be so drunk or stoned in a gutter somewhere that well...yeah anyways, im doing...betterish. Like the beatles say "Ive got to admit, its getting better, a little bit better everyday."
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Posted: Sun Jun 22, 2008 4:07 pm
I'm very glad they're getting better-- partying hard is occasionally good, but in small quantities. A gutter bed should, by no means, be a regular occurance.
Betterish tops worseish by a long shot, I hope things continue in that general direction.
z.
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Posted: Mon Jun 23, 2008 9:14 pm
Zurah I'm very glad they're getting better-- partying hard is occasionally good, but in small quantities. A gutter bed should, by no means, be a regular occurance.
Betterish tops worseish by a long shot, I hope things continue in that general direction.
z. It goes back and forth really. Just been rough. Failed college, my girlfriend of 2.5 years left me. I broke up with her but only because she was cheating on me (again) and refused to leave me. And I can bareley afford to live and just found out im not getting the raise I was promised. So I am alone, poor, and stupid I suppose right. Best thing out of it all though I have not seen or talked to the Ex for about 3 weeks now, and I plan to keep it that way. I was cool with her than kept hearing more and more about what she was telling people about me, and how much she really did lie to me, just easier not to be around her. Im trying to date but its harder than it was in high school haha. Oh well.
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Posted: Sat Jun 28, 2008 12:29 am
Well, as much as I hate to quote AA the first step is admitting there's a problem, not just with substances but with life and general. I've been a simliar place before, but for me it always helps to realize that once you've hit rock bottom there's really only the top left. If an opportunity comes, take it, and just keep looking for ways to better yourself and your situation.
Most people don't even finish college till later in life now, and returning adult studies are also much easier to complete, granted you get everything else on track getting back into that swing should be pretty easy.
Oh, and I can feel you on the dating outside of high school thing and school in general. I hate to say it but there's always the internet.
The hardest part is just telling yourself you're past the bullshit.
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RocketPunk108 Vice Captain
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Posted: Sat Jun 28, 2008 8:52 pm
Regardless of who you listen to, Rayler, I really really hope things turn up better. It doesn't sound like you're having much fun.
Bullshit doesn't end.
You'll have to put up with it for the rest of your life. I'm sorry, but people will be stupid. The world will be unfair. Damning things will be awfully tempting. Life won't get easier.
You need to change.
The world's too busy with itself to notice that you aren't doing too well and change. You're the one that's going to need to jump-start it. If you think you've hit rock bottom, my friend, you are so very wrong. You can barely afford to live-- at least you can afford that.
Social problems hurt.
They dig deep and are harder to fix than a broken arm. Sometimes, you can't fix them. Loneliness sucks, and it often feels like a nail in the coffin.
Cheer up, my friend.
It will help. Things will be good in the end. If it's not good yet, then it's not the end... And a story should be finished once it's begun. Yours is certainly worth playing out. It's summer, hon. A lot of very inexpensive social events tend to happen during the summer months-- I highly recommend a search on your city's gathering things. Even look up local leather and BDSM events-- who knows who you could meet?
Good luck.
I really didn't mean to preach, or ramble. Sorry it was so long...
z.
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Posted: Mon Jun 30, 2008 1:22 pm
Zurah Regardless of who you listen to, Rayler, I really really hope things turn up better. It doesn't sound like you're having much fun.
Bullshit doesn't end.
You'll have to put up with it for the rest of your life. I'm sorry, but people will be stupid. The world will be unfair. Damning things will be awfully tempting. Life won't get easier.
You need to change.
The world's too busy with itself to notice that you aren't doing too well and change. You're the one that's going to need to jump-start it. If you think you've hit rock bottom, my friend, you are so very wrong. You can barely afford to live-- at least you can afford that.
Social problems hurt.
They dig deep and are harder to fix than a broken arm. Sometimes, you can't fix them. Loneliness sucks, and it often feels like a nail in the coffin.
Cheer up, my friend.
It will help. Things will be good in the end. If it's not good yet, then it's not the end... And a story should be finished once it's begun. Yours is certainly worth playing out. It's summer, hon. A lot of very inexpensive social events tend to happen during the summer months-- I highly recommend a search on your city's gathering things. Even look up local leather and BDSM events-- who knows who you could meet?
Good luck.
I really didn't mean to preach, or ramble. Sorry it was so long...
z. No its cool. Things are...ok...as of now but it just seems everytime i get something good going on something worse happens. Like something out there is enjoying seeing me get s**t all over. Wednesday though a good friend of mine is coming over to do a clensing and we are going to do some energy play with eachtoher. Been over a year since I have done it I am actually really exited about that. I know it sounds goofey, but it makes me feel better so anything works. Plus I am actually planning a trip to waverly hills sanitarium with my EX. We always talked about going and we like to ghost hunt, so I really look foreward to that too. I guess you could say things are actually starting to look up, just waiting for the call that someone died, lol.
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Posted: Wed Jul 09, 2008 12:22 pm
Energy play's always fun... If things are still feeling a bit tense and thick once they leave, try burning some sage, sprinkling salt water, etc.
It's good to hear things are feeling up, a little... I hope that call never comes.
Best of luck, hon, it looks like you're finally spotting a light. Let's hope it's not a train.
z.
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