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 Posted: Sun Sep 18, 2005 12:29 am
i used to be in really bad shape as all of u can remember...well im doin much better now! i mean i used to have no convidence in my self or in anything...well the vitamins im takin have finally started working and im actually happy. and like the quote says: "dont frown cause u never kno whos falling in love with ur smile". well i found someone....for the first time in my life i have someone who really really likes me and i really really like them back...im the happiest ive been in my whole life! im actually smiling for no reason half of the time....im wat u could say in love....its really a big change for me....i used to relapse into cutting, i used to be convinced i was JUST like my dad....where im not! im changin NOW! and im not goin to turn back! im not about to break anytime soon! im a strong individual who has learned that even through the hardest of times, there is always reason y u were put through them. i made this saying....it says this: "Don't worry about the past, when the present is now, and the future is coming soon." its also true...though sometimes hard to believe at times...its true! i never once thought i could actually have a future...and i never thought in my wildest dreams that someone i liked would like me back. and even though my friends dont like him for their own reasons i couldnt hate him without knowing him, so i gave him a chance and we both ended up falling for each other...it was amazing....and even though i dont have the loving support of some i do have the loving support of others...and thats all that matters...and im just gonna remember this feeling im feeling now and remember that it IS achievable through the hardest of times....not matter how hard life is....dreams CAN come true! dont any of u give up that hope of happiness! cause it comes and finds u in the most unlikely ways....its always surprising when u find it! so please just remember me....i used to want nothing but to die....and for the ppl who hury me to die too and now im hopeful for wat the future brings to me and im LIVING im not just mearly EXISTING im actually LIVING for once in my life...and let me tell all of u! its the BEST feelin u will ever feel! to live! its amazing! yeah! i just wanted to tell all of u! and i will stay here to give u all advice....but please DONT EVER GIVE UP HOPE!!!! i love all of u! and wish ALL of u the best of luck! i KNOW all of u will get better if u just give urself time to heal and to recover...and for the meds if u use them to work.....ok? so im goin to go to bed....i love all of u! happy days will come to all! i kno that!
Blessed Be,
Rachel Irwin
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Posted: Sun Sep 18, 2005 1:55 am
I'm glad you're doing so much better, hon. That's fantastic. Keep up the good work!
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Posted: Sun Sep 18, 2005 9:37 am
That's great to hear. I've been doing better lately myself. Anyways I'm glad to hear that someone has broken through their illness. I hope this continues.
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Posted: Sun Sep 18, 2005 8:33 pm
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Posted: Mon Sep 19, 2005 10:50 am
Wow. I'm really happy for you. You've got a fantastic attitude there, if you can keep it up you'll go far 3nodding
Never forget what you said here and never stop believing it.
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Posted: Mon Sep 19, 2005 6:33 pm
I'm glad you're doing so well! Take care and Blessed Be!
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