Well I guess it all started when I was born my so called "farther" would beat my mom.I was a baby and didn't know what was going on.I heard the story from my "step-brother"when I went to my "dad's house".My mom doesn't talk about it all I mean when I use to ask about it she would just say he came and he went.So thats the only story I knew.I use to hate going too his house,he had married some other women he had 2kids at first they all hated me when they had a third kid his wife told my mom"Tiffany ain't the baby no more" but it didn't matter to me.I didn't think of them ask a family,hell he never called on a birhtday[that if is he knows it and he never called]
My mother already had 2kids and was married to my brother and sister's dad.He loved me like his own but he had his own problems he was on drugs...badly[I just found out this year].She left him and moved in with her mom[before I was born]
Years later I found my self very sad and I didn't know what the reason was I use to say of in my room watching t.v and stuff,I was the odd one out of the three of my brother and sister.When the years came around and I had to go too summer school they would call me stupid,bumb and stuff like that.I guess they thought I was going to prove them wrong or something[even though it did] stuff like that puts me down and really makes it harder for me so I belive what they say and give up on the cause.Around seventh grade I had a talk with my sister about how I felt about myself she though I was gonna kill myself.For a while everthing was great after that talk then 8th grade Hit.
It went back to being hopeless.I had made friends who just put me down.I didn't open up to anyone at school so I kept tomyself.then one day while I was listening to Billy talent-nothing to lose I really started thinking about the ppl who said things about me,it just ran threw my head like water I wanted die.I cried myself to sleep that night.
Til this current day I feel as if noone understands me and Im better off talking in a mirror to myself
~shadow~
........cause thats all I am in my eyes
My mother already had 2kids and was married to my brother and sister's dad.He loved me like his own but he had his own problems he was on drugs...badly[I just found out this year].She left him and moved in with her mom[before I was born]
Years later I found my self very sad and I didn't know what the reason was I use to say of in my room watching t.v and stuff,I was the odd one out of the three of my brother and sister.When the years came around and I had to go too summer school they would call me stupid,bumb and stuff like that.I guess they thought I was going to prove them wrong or something[even though it did] stuff like that puts me down and really makes it harder for me so I belive what they say and give up on the cause.Around seventh grade I had a talk with my sister about how I felt about myself she though I was gonna kill myself.For a while everthing was great after that talk then 8th grade Hit.
It went back to being hopeless.I had made friends who just put me down.I didn't open up to anyone at school so I kept tomyself.then one day while I was listening to Billy talent-nothing to lose I really started thinking about the ppl who said things about me,it just ran threw my head like water I wanted die.I cried myself to sleep that night.
Til this current day I feel as if noone understands me and Im better off talking in a mirror to myself
~shadow~
........cause thats all I am in my eyes
