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 Posted: Mon Aug 25, 2008 2:09 pm
I have actually just lost all my friends, and me and my boyfriend are on bad terms right now.
I don't know what to do
where to turn
who to talk to
what to say;
This happens way too often to be Okay.
I fall out with my 'Friends' so much since I started to care about not being a push over all the time. I don't let them trample all over me anymore and stick up for my rights and who I should be allowed to be.
Selish, cowardly, bitchy, a whore, a boy stealer, vein, A gay {which I personally find offensive..}, a "wannabe", stuck up, self absorbed, creepy, childish, too grown up {makes no sense, right?}, complain too much when something's bothering me, Not tell anyone anything when something's bothering me, fake, ignorant, that I care too much, that I care too little, that I only think about myself all the time, that i never stop to think about myself and what I need, that I think I'm better thayone else which is complete bollocks because I'm about as low as it gets right now.
They were all said to my face, and behind my back.
I don't know what to believe anymore, I completely synthetic from trying to please people, I have no idea who I am anymore but I haven't really known for a long time now.
I'm tired of being walked all over by them all, they think it's okay to take advantage of what I'll do, because deep down I just want to help everyone, but they just don't care when I try to help them and they call me self absorbed when I don't help them. They don't talk to me or anything unless they need something from me.
My "best friend" is constantly reminding me about how selfish and stuck up I am most of the time. She's gotten extra close to my boyfriend who's actually moving countries next month, and telling me she's going to miss him more than me and I just really can't take it.
He's fallen out with me because I told him about how I was upset about my friend and him getting so close and he just got annoyed and left.
I'm alone, and hopeless.
I'm so bad at interacting with people, there's got to be something wrong with me.
x
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Posted: Wed Aug 27, 2008 5:43 pm
of course there's something wrong with everybody.
and one of the things wrong me with, is that i give bad
advice. so.. bare/bear with me.
well, maybe.. maybe you need different friends. that's
all i can think of. X__________________x told you i was
really bad at advice! x] well, i suck at this, but i'm always
here to talk to, and i'd be more than happy to be one
of your friends, even if i don't know you in real life.
i mean, most of my friends are online friends. in fact,
the only friend i really have in real life is lunar. pathetic,
no? and it's alright, i'm gay, too, so i know your pain.
:]
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Posted: Wed Aug 27, 2008 7:07 pm
It's not pathetic, honestly :] my only friend in real life right now is one of my ex's who's got a major crush on me but won't tell me but has told everyone else >.< {agh, hate the word crush} It's lovely to have one person to stay stuck to, but I probably say that because I can't usually keep friends for more than a week, heh. Yeah, your advice is actually helpfull :3 I'm not going to 'hang around' with them anymore, especially since a couple of them just want to know me because I'm more likely to be able to get my hands on vodka than they are o_O so, my break times are going to be me, sitting in a dark corner with my depressing books 8] thankyou, you're really kind hearted you know thanks for responding to my post where it was pretty much just me having a HUUUUGE b***h about my 'mates' 'tis much apreciated :3 Lady Solar Artemis
of course there's something wrong with everybody.
and one of the things wrong me with, is that i give bad
advice. so.. bare/bear with me.
well, maybe.. maybe you need different friends. that's
all i can think of. X__________________x told you i was
really bad at advice! x] well, i suck at this, but i'm always
here to talk to, and i'd be more than happy to be one
of your friends, even if i don't know you in real life.
i mean, most of my friends are online friends. in fact,
the only friend i really have in real life is lunar. pathetic,
no? and it's alright, i'm gay, too, so i know your pain.
:]
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Posted: Sun Aug 31, 2008 11:00 am
I know it seems like you've solved your problems but to me it sounds like you're running away. I've been through that EXACT same thing, minus the boyfriend part. I tried doing what you did but it only caused more rumors, teasing, and blatant rudeness. You SHOULD drop them as friends, but you should make a clean break from them before doing so. Make it apparent that you're sick of being treated like s**t and you're not going to take it anymore. You need to let them know that you're not going to feed into their petty little games and that you're better than that; that you're just going to stop putting up with them.
As far as your boyfriend trouble goes, it sounds like a spur of the moment thing. He should be over it soon and if he’s not you need to sit down and talk with him – if he’s getting that mad over a FRIEND, then there’s got to be something more. I’m sorry if you don’t want to hear that but you just need to be safe.
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Posted: Mon Sep 01, 2008 9:09 pm
Sounds from the distant world
Just barely reach my ears
All the screaming, bloody crowds that flash across the news
Become no more than words Some people just can't get over how much better than everyone else they were taught they are. And so, now that they're starting to realize that they've being complete bastards, they either have to accept it and feel the guilt, or the can decide that everyone who's nice, or just a bit different is someone to pick on just because they weren't fed the industrial definitions of good and bad, and of how much self esteem people deserve to have. And they just don't want to admit that there's people out there who heard the same garbage from those insanely sensored children's shows, and still manage to have a shred of decency. So it's nothing bad on your part. From what I've read from stalkerishly reading a lot of the topics and their replies in this guild, you seem like a really nice person. And you'll pull through, and end up actually being good at something and achieving something, while they just become another industrial office worker with 2.6 kids, and 1.3 pets.
{I apologize for this horrible advice}nomore than facts
My heart has sold it's tears
For the audacity of fear
Lost in the sound
it's own rythmic heartbeat
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Posted: Sat Sep 06, 2008 11:36 am
Sounds like your "friends" weren't really friends to begin with and if your boyfriend was unable to comfort you when you were really upset about the whole thing, things wouldn't have worked out with him anyway. Just be yourself. Stop worrying about what others are saying about you. Words can only hurt as badly as you let them. Just don't let them. I know this may be easier said than done, but try. Honestly, why should you care what they think? You'll meet people that like you for you. Those are the people you should try to keep. Friends that come and go, they're not that important. You'll come across a lot of them and a lot of them will stab you in the back. Just learn from it. Don't let it get to you.
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