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I'm not leaving yet, and neither is my fiance, but he's in the marines and I'm going into Army ROTC. I'll be at basic and school from the day after I take my finals until pretty much the day I go back to school. This means he'll be going to Basic without seeing me at all this summer. I'm really bummed out about this and I don't want to think about it, but I can't help it. I thought we'd have a month together this summer, but then I decided to do ROTC and I really wish someone would have told me I could do Basic Training in high school or before I came. He's going to have like 10 days between Basic and School where he can visit me, but then he's off again and then we'll see what happens there. I don't have any time between Basic and School though.

And I'm getting really sick of my friends telling me I'm a horrible person for joining the army. It's not helping my emotions stay in check at all.

Also, my college is already away from home so I haven't seen him for over a month and I'm about to lose it. I know I'll be able to do this, it just won't be easy.

I realize that we won't be stationed together. I know I have to adapt, but it doesn't make it easy. I'm only at college right now and I'm starting to feel like he's not real anymore. Like he's just an internet friend or something.

I know that Basic won't be too long, but what will be long is it taking my ENTIRE summer and not seeing him before or after. sweatdrop

And I'm not going to lie, that feeling scares me. The feeling of him not being real. I'm scared that we won't make it through this because if we learn to live without each other and adapt to not needing each other.. why would need each other ever? It'll basically be like we're both single when we're apart, especially since there's little to no correspondence that will be happening during Basic.

I just feel so empty without him nearby. I hate it. But that's what makes me think it will work out, because what else is there for me? What other option do I have? I really really hate the people who tell us we can't. We're high school sweethearts, that'll never work out. I'm away at college, it'll never work out. We're going into two different branches, it'll never work out. That's why I joined this guild, I figured you guys wouldn't tell me that.

I know you're not saying it won't work out, I was kinda thanking you for it.

It's just 7 months starting in April of like no contact is gonna be rough. And it's just compounded by the fact that deployments will be twice as long, and we could be deployed in opposite places and.. ugh.

He does mention though that we get leave and we could potentially both take leave at the same time if we had overlapping deployments. I forgot about leave. And I don't really know how it works.

What about when our times at basic for no calling are overlapping? He also said that he was told he can make one actual phone call from basic and it has to be to his parents saying he arrived at Parris Island.

also, hearing that I will hear from him more in basic than during a deployment kinda made me feel worse... sweatdrop

Yeah exactly that.. that makes it worse... >.>

The tough part about the phone calls is our boot camps are overlapping. So right when I start being allowed to do phone calls and stuff he enters boot camp. Then right when he's allowed to get phone calls I go to school, and this will continue for about half a year.

You can call people and stuff from school though right?

Yes you can. But you won't be able to call him. He has to call you.