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I was born into a christian family. I went to church a bit but, that ended at age 7ish. I was never really a curch person anyways.

As a kid I was always made fun of. Called names ect. Then in 6th grade, I was heading to Middle school and the rude people just got worse. Thats when i met my best friend. I totally loved her (not in a gay way x]) We were always together.

Then after that year i found out i had to move...to another country. I was freaked. I bawled forever. My friend was sad to. But, she wasn't very positive about it. She didn't make it any easier. So i cried more.

Eventually I moved, and when I did my friend did a 180. She used to be tomboy, nice, always sticking up for me. Then she became a Girly girl (short skirts...low shirts..) She became mean and all she cared about was being popular.

I was her friend and I was pretty insecure then so, I changed to. Anything to keep my best friend. I still went to visit her at christmas and other holidays. She was more and more different everytime i saw her again. She was draping herself over guys >.> ect.

Finally after maybe half a year my mom confronted me. She told me how badly I had been acting and how different I had been dressing. (not to mention how i just forgot about God and how unhappy I really was.) And it was like I fell off a cliff and BANG! I hit the bottom.

I knew she was right. I knew it very much and i broke down crying because i didn't it want it to be true and because i knew what i had to do. I knew i was going to have to give up my best friend. I knew that i didn't have the strength to still be her friend and be with God.

That was an extremely hard thing to do. To give up my best friend. It sucked. But, I did.

Now, 2 years later, I'm so happy I did. I knew that if i would have still been friends with her SOO many bad things would be happening in my life. It took me 2 years to be able to come out of my God rut and finally just a couple months ago I have become a dedicated Christian and a dedicated person to just love.

Truthfully, I have never been so happy and felt like i'm on top of the world. (well, i still have a bunch of problems but, i know it will be okay x] )

I just remembered one of my favourite sayings. It kind of relates to my life when i was in my rut.
"If you know me and forget me you have lost nothing. But, if you have known God and forget him, you have lost everything."

Hope you enjoy (and understand) my testimony lol <3 (I felt like i was rambling a bit)

Heh...thanks :3 <3

I really like your testimony, it must have been so hard and because she was your best friend and your first real friend it must have really hurt to see her change so much.

You are very strong and I admire your testimony ^^