I thought for a while that I wouldn't for whatever reason. But now that I'm in I'm pretty excited.
A little about myself.
I'm 20 and I live in Little Italy(Boston's North End). I guess it kind of goes without saying that I'm male. sweatdrop I'm Nubian, Native American, and a few other things and though I wasn't raised to be educated about most of them I try to educate myself about them. I'm very proud to be Nubian and I hope that one day I can say that I am proud of my other ethnic heritage too.
I'm kind of closeted. No one knows that I'm gay with the acception of anyone I've ever had a crush on.
I don't have a boyfriend and have never had a boyfriend. The closest thing I've had to that was a guy I met on myspace but never met in person. That whole thing was a phone based relationship that lasted for a little over 8 months.
I don't have anything against coming out accept for one thing. My family's opinion of me. In their eyes I'm all ready a bit screwed up. I have depression, ADD, and something else that makes it difficult for me to catch on to social norms and relate to other people(won't discuss that). I don't think that being gay makes me screwed up, but at one point I decided to test the waters on what a very important family member thought about another family member that is a lesbian. She expressed that she thought it was a birth defect.
Hearing that hurt me a little bit. I all ready have so many other things that make me "defective" adding my sexual orientation to the mix is pretty much out of the question.
I do love people who are open and out about their sexuality because it gives me some hope. I could honestly say that I look at some of those people as heroes.
I don't have any gay friends, or guy friends period(that's right all my friends are female and it's mostly because I feel more comfortable around them).
I was hoping that by joining this guild I could make friends on gaia around my age. I don't plan on dating anyone though because I don't want to date someone while I'm still closeted. I don't think it'd be fair to whomever I was dating and I don't want the added stress of hiding the relationship.
