Now I know I shouldn't be asking you Gaians this, but man, I'm getting kinda desperate here.
So I'm on cymbalta, which is a fairly new anti-depressant.
And I've been taking it for... About a week over a month. So it's definitely working by now.
But, as it's taken away all of my depression, it's taken away a good portion of most other emotions.
So now I don't feel depression much, I don't feel sad much, I don't feel happy much, I don't feel angry much, I just feel nothing. A great numbness.
And it's making me sick. Draining me of life. Giving me suicidal thoughts to the point of where I care of nothing but going through with what I've plotted in my head.
I've told my mom about it, and she says for me to wait until I meet up with my doctor so he can give me a new prescription on the pills. But, I don't want to wait that long. Who knows if I'm left alone, I may get to thinking really bad thoughts, and pop out some pills and swallow them all, and just end everything? I want to stop taking them immediately, maybe try a different medication. I just want the numbness to end, because as far as I know, it's much worse than the depression.
Annnnnd, my mom said stopping pills and not taking them after being on them for so long and screw you up. I dunno about that, but.... eh. >_>
What should I do?
Flush the pills? Tell my mom about it, get her to call the doctor and ask his advice?
Or.... what?
So I'm on cymbalta, which is a fairly new anti-depressant.
And I've been taking it for... About a week over a month. So it's definitely working by now.
But, as it's taken away all of my depression, it's taken away a good portion of most other emotions.
So now I don't feel depression much, I don't feel sad much, I don't feel happy much, I don't feel angry much, I just feel nothing. A great numbness.
And it's making me sick. Draining me of life. Giving me suicidal thoughts to the point of where I care of nothing but going through with what I've plotted in my head.
I've told my mom about it, and she says for me to wait until I meet up with my doctor so he can give me a new prescription on the pills. But, I don't want to wait that long. Who knows if I'm left alone, I may get to thinking really bad thoughts, and pop out some pills and swallow them all, and just end everything? I want to stop taking them immediately, maybe try a different medication. I just want the numbness to end, because as far as I know, it's much worse than the depression.
Annnnnd, my mom said stopping pills and not taking them after being on them for so long and screw you up. I dunno about that, but.... eh. >_>
What should I do?
Flush the pills? Tell my mom about it, get her to call the doctor and ask his advice?
Or.... what?
KILL. REPEAT.
