Clouds heavy and grey press upon me.
The words I never said, and will never hear
but I can't feel the pressure, only this numbness
I stand in the shower with scalding water

But I'm so numb and so cold I can't feel it
Memories of her flood my mind in waves of torment
I fight so damn hard to keep my tears in my eyes
The eyes that saw her on the night of the dance

The arms that held her are stiff and won't bend
I fumble with clumsy hands that I can't even feel
And still these memories crash against my heart
Like icy waves against a drowning sailor

Everything I tried only made things so much worse
And I can never forgive myself for what I did
The tears falling down her face, the death of our romance
what I never saw is what I loved so much

Now I sit here in a pool of disgustingly weak self-pity
But I can't pity myself, it was my fault, I let the moment slip
She did so much for me, and I never saw it until she was gone
And now her words resonate in my mind, "I hate you"

When I held her, I could see the love in her eyes, alive, blazing
And now all I see in her beautiful eyes is cold, hollow hatred left...
Nothing remains of what used to be, and it never will come back
I could have felt her lips pressed against mine but I pushed her away

I don't want to live anymore dreams about her and me together
Laughing, holding each other, her lips pressed to mine
I don't want to live anymore if I have to wake up in the middle of the night
Looking for her next to me to find it was only a dream

All thats beside me is cold air, thats all that will ever be
This misery never ceases, my loneliness is never gone
Sorrow is the only thing I have other than despair
And the words of the one I love resonate inside my head...