______Coming back from a small project or you may say mission the Rain Guardian took on by himself, the man walked into the hidden headquarters that was built by none other then his good friend and leader, Sawada Tsunayoshi. Every time the good friend of Tsuna; the Rain Guardian steps into the halls of the underground hideaway, he's always taken away with the memories of his fallen leader. It's like every little thing might as well have the young leaders picture on them for that's how it looked like whenever he stepped into the escape place the man built for his family. Just knowing that his best friend had his life taken away from him so early and for such a way everyone knew deep down in them, was going to kill him one day. The Rain Guardian always and still feels like there must have been some way he could have helped Tsuna like he normally did for him in the past to change the out come that had unfolded for the young mafia boss but the Rain Guardian knows those feelings are nothing but foolish things to have hanging on his mind. He can't stop thinking that way at times though thanks to Sawada Tsunayoshi's right hand man that still lives on.
______Ever since the day the young, Tenth Vongola Boss had been taken away from everyone; the Storm Guardian has been the one that shows the most sadness and anger at himself for not doing something on that horrid day. The man's personality that the Rain Guardian has known and slowly started to love was being replaced with sorrow and pure anger. Sure the Storm Guardian; Hayato Gokudera was normally always angry but it was a different kind of hate that he normally showed to others and it makes sense you can say. Being the right hand man of The Tenth and to then find out he died while he still live would normally cause that person to change in many was. Gokudera was no different. Sure the Storm Guardian would once in awhile would turn back to his old self but now whenever the two of them meet after that day, you could tell everything was different between the two of them. The anger that normally made the Rain Guardian laugh at whenever Gokudera would yell at him had grown more in venom that you couldn't help but to just stay still and just receive the emotion. The Rain Guardian, Takeshi Yamamoto misses the days deeply that he and the Storm Guardian would have a somewhat of some kind of relationship unlike now where they hardly see one another for days on thanks to the war life there in now. When they do see one another though, Yamamoto knows that it can't really go back to those days so he chooses to not push on making conversion with the Storm Guardian unless he's spoken to.
______Yamamoto keeps to his old ways though when he gets the chance to show his good friend that things don't have to change completely since The Tenth Vongola Boss has passed on but Yamamoto can tell Gokudera doesn't approve of it. Knowing in the pass that Gokudera hardly smiled in back then unless it was related to Tsuna, with the years that had passed with young Tsunayoshi being deceased. Yamamoto finds him realizing that not only did Tsuna die with so many memories but also with many of the Vongola's members smiles. The one smile that causes the Rain Guardian to feel sad that was taken away is none other then The Storm Guardian's own smile. The rare smile that only came around to the man's lips when he was with Tsuna was now long gone which causes Yamamoto to forget about his own, true smile.
______Yamamoto may be somewhat slow at times but thanks to growing up and slowly getting out of that name a bit over the years, Yamamoto came to terms of his emotions towards both of his close friends, Gokudera the Storm Guardian and Tsuna the Tenth Vongola Boss. He cares for both of them very much but after stepping back a little bit from the both of them for a bit, Yamamoto found himself needing to do that to figure out something that kept bothering him. He was starting to feel anger towards Tsuna whenever he saw him laughing and smiling to Gokudera and receiving the same things from the Storm Guardian in return. Not really understanding it, he just stood in the back trying to act as normal as he could and kinda just finding anyway to split them apart from the both of them to not feel that kind of emotion towards his good friend. The nights that he and Tsuna were alone though, he noticed that he didn't mind it when it was just the two of them. It puzzled him to the max and started to wonder if he grow deeper emotions towards the 'No Good Tsuna'. The idea didn't last long enough in his mind though for he just couldn't ever see himself that way with Tsuna. Later on though he then noticed that he didn't mind being alone with Tsuna but enjoyed being with the Storm Guardian alone more. When he got to that point he noticed that he didn't hold anger towards Tsuna whenever he and Gokudera were together but was mostly envies of the other. Always being able to have Gokudera wanting to be with the other and liking every moment they spend together with one another all the time, Yamamoto found himself wanting to do anything to be in Tsuna's shoes when it came to Gokudera.
______He didn't act on his emotions for Gokudera after realizing these emotions to his fellow comrade and friend though. Seeing the close bond the two of them had, Yamamoto feared of losing everything like his friendship with the two over just wanting to speck of his feelings for Gokudera and also the fear of just plainly being rejected by the the Storm Guardian. Watching over the other Guardian and being able to glance at his smile when the three of them were together was good enough for him for the time being. When he got a bit older though, envy ate away at Yamamoto even more since all Gokudera did was hang around Tsuna even more then normal thanks to the war among mafia's started. True, he didn't mind it at first but it then caused him to hardly be able to see the Storm Guardian after awhile. Lost in thoughts on what to do about all this, his thoughts changed instantly with the death of Tsuna.
______Now walking into the kitchen area of the underground hideout, Yamamoto started to feel like he was all alone in the place. It wouldn't be the first time Giannini would randomly pop out of nowhere in the hideout so in the Rain Guardian's mind, he knew he wasn't completely alone in this big place. Giannini was most likely working on something somewhere in his research lab. Since he was the only one in the kitchen at the moment, Yamamoto placed his katana down beside the eating table as he then stretched his arms up into the air to get a bit more comfortable and relaxed at the moment. The Rain Guardian was walking over to the refrigerator to find something to cook for now. He was planning to go down to his room to shower but hunger ate at him for now. As he opened the cold box, Yamamoto started to pull on the not* of his tie a bit to let the tie just hang around his neck a bit more loss then normal.
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