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solidsnaked

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Posted: Sun Mar 01, 2009 10:02 am

i don't really know what to say about myself. ^^;
um, the basics:

> my name is Raffy.
> i'm seventeen.
> somewhere in sunny california is where i'm located. xD
> uh.... i have a cat? xDD
> my birthday is december 6. :3
> uh, yea, that's it for the basics, i guess. o;

now for the... stuff? xD;
> i have never been to therapy, but i think i should go, especially now because i believe i am addicted to cutting myself. i guess you can say i have low impulse control and a lot of repressed hostility.
> i hate the feeling of being left out, yet it always happens to me, especially amongst my friends. (i'll journal about this later)
> i believe i am ADD positive, Manic-Depressive, and Suicidal, but who's to know considering i can't diagnose myself.
> i'm a sociopath. i'm misanthropic. yet i wonder why i have friends to begin with... i hate people.... (will journal)
> i smoke, but i'm not a chain smoker. i only smoke whenever i can get my hands on a pack, aka, stealing... from people, obviously. it would be quite a challenge to steal from the nearest liquor store.
> which leads to another thing, i believe i'm a klepto. stealing is fun. the adrenaline rush and what not. i haven't gotten caught... yet~

(do i sound deranged to you?)

> i like to plot the deaths of people.
> every time i wake up i always damn myself to oblivion, wondering why i couldn't stay asleep FOREVER.
> i'm not on good terms with my parents. and i don't think that will ever change.
> i hate it when people walk out of my life for no apparent reason. this probably drove me to hate people, among plenty of other reasons.
> my dad's an a*****e.
> i believe i have an eating disorder. there are times where i binge, and there are times where i won't eat for days.
> i get paranoid easily.
> i probably have an anxiety disorder.
> i'm coulrophobic and arachnophobic. arachnophobia is probably common amongst others, but for me, i'd die at the sight of a spider. i can't function. same with clowns. i'd cry. probably have an anxiety attack. probably attempt to kill myself if one came too close to me.

all of these things, i should probably tell someone. but i can't. i'm too afraid. fear. fear runs me.

i could say more about myself, but that makes me feel a bit conceited.