Wrote these today. Comments?

You said that you would be back here again.
For months that's all I thought about.
I was finally going to be able to hold you in my arms.
I lived each day with a smile knowing it wouldn't be much longer.
There was that voice in my head.
Saying you wouldn't hold true.
Yelling at me not to believe you.
But I wouldn't listen, I thought this was it.
I wanted to trust you, as hard as that is.
Well it turns out we were both waiting for something.
Just not the same thing.
Me for you and you for him.
Your knight in shining armor, however cracked he may be.
You were just waiting for him to return.
And now that he has I no longer matter.
You just want to be with him as quick as you can.
No longer will I get to hold you in my arms.
Once again all that i've wanted has been ripped out from underneath me.
I'm not really sure how to feel.
I've always known this was a possibility.
I just hoped that this time would be different.
I guess I was wrong for hoping.

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After all that we've been through you still pick him.
I'm the only one that's always been here for you.
Any time anything bad has happened i've been there.
Any time you've been crying i've been there.
Any time someone has left you i've been there.
Any time you've been sick i've been worried.
I've never cheated on you, or lied to you,
or left you, or got bored with you.
I've never hurt you unintentionally or otherwise.
I've never only come to you when it was convenient for me.
I've always wanted you to be mine.
You've just always been with someone else.
I've never really had a chance.
And when I have had chances i've been too shy to do anything.
I just can't believe you would pick him over me.

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But I do understand where you're coming from.
You do these things to me yet I still hold on.
I still wait for that glimmer of hope.
Like you I won't let go.
I screw up other relationships waiting for you.
I hold myself back waiting for you.
But not because of you.
But because I love you.
The way I treat K is the way you treat me.
You don't think that's true?
Think about it.
I know you love me, you just love him more.
And that is something I cannot understand.
I treat you so damn well, all the time.
He only treats you well some of the time.
And no matter how much I don't understand why you do it.
I still end up doing it to K. And I still don't get it.
It makes no sense in my head.
It frustrates me.