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You know what I hate? Attempted suicide. One of the girls in my bipolar group tried to kill herself, and no one has heard from her since. I am so ******** worried. This is my third round with attempted suicide, and it's not any easier. It's not fun, it makes me worry and fret and hope the person will be okay. I understand the urge to kill oneself, really I do. I even understand trying. That doesn't make it okay. It still hurts people. And I'm feeling selfish too; I mean, I don't want to go through this again. I hate it. It ******** sucks. Because in the end there is nothing you can do for the person. I can't even call the cops and have them do a welfare check because I have no freaking clue where she lives; no one does. So I get to wait and hope she's okay. >_<
I am really sorry to hear this. I totally know what you mean and where you are coming from. For me it's a mix of worry and I have to admit some anger too. I don't know about you, you said you feel selfish, but on the other hand you cannot walk their path, they have to do it and if that means they do that thing then you have to distance yourself to some extent to take care of yourself. It is very sad that you have to go through the wait so I am sorry to hear about it and I hope your friend does ok.
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