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 Posted: Sun May 31, 2009 9:23 pm
Strange how some stupid little thing can turn your mood in a 180...
I admit, I haven't been sleeping well since school ended, and the past week's events haven't helped one bit. My fuse feels like it's at an all-time short length with everything, and nothing I do seems to be preventing it from getting shorter. Even reading creepy-a** Higurashi manga or writing parts of an English project aren't working! Sketchbookand drawing tablet are currently unavailable, so I can't draw... Doesn't help that I still need to ******** fill out an other job application for HMNS (since they apparently looked over my first one), Mr. Curator of Anthropology still hasn't gotten back to me about discussing museum careers (after I've e-mailed him twice and called him with voicemail left), and I can't sleep in to try to feel better tomorrow morning because I have to call the ******** doc's office a**-early so I can get the annual check-up dealt with before going back to Houston sometime tomorrow. Then it's back to full days at HMNS. Doesn't help I haven't been feeling myself this past week, of course I've been surrounded by ancient people in an nursing home in middle-of-nowhere Kansas, learning more about hospice care and the stages of death than I would really like to know at the time, so it's no wonder I'm not my usual self. Hell, I think this post is almost tame to the feeling I currently have of wanting to rip something to shreds...
And another thing... why the ******** does it feel like I'm the only person who doesn't think of sex/horniness 24/7?! Or is this a guy thing that will go away with time (or not if viagra is involved)? And why the ******** is it my fault for not talking to someone and "ignoring them?" When I try to talk with them, they don't respond, it's kind of hard to talk with someone when the convo is only one-way. And god forbid when I pull up MSN while working on my comp, I don't wait to see who's online before going back to my work. IF I'M ONLINE, FEEL FREE TO START CHATTING! IS IT THAT ******** HARD? If I don't want to talk, I'm either offline or I will tell you otherwise, or leave a message saying Don't disturb...
Why am I even ranting to you morons in the first place? Not like I really get any good/helpful/serious comments when I do, even with this being the seriousness forum. Actually, don't even bother responding to this. You guys seem to have enough drama in guild to deal with... I'll be in my corner enjoying some solitude and hopefully some relaxation...
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Posted: Mon Jun 01, 2009 12:20 pm
 Sounds like you need to decompress. Have you tried other forms of art? I started doing the dolls or making my own. Try artpad.com (I think it is). Also, don't you do Tae Kwon Do? Maybe that can help relieve some of your stress/tension.
Kansas? that's kinda out there...what made you go there and do hospice. That can't be an easy thing to do.
Are you back in Houston for school? (Better than College Station isn't it?)
Try to focus on some of the little things that are for the better. Sometimes its the little things that make the big things not seem quite so over whelming.
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Posted: Mon Jun 01, 2009 7:39 pm
smile_its_me Sounds like you need to decompress. Have you tried other forms of art?
Very fun, and can give fun results! (as long as you don't take something too complicated...)
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Posted: Mon Jun 01, 2009 7:59 pm
@smile: I'm currently in Houston, working at the natural science museum over the summer. And I was in TKD, when I was living back in GP. Haven't found a place or the time since I started college... As for Kansas, that's where my grandma is, and her health is deteriorating quickly due to metastatic breast cancer... And now that I have my sketchbook and art tablet accessible, hopefully art can help somewhat.
I think it's also I just need time to myself. I've been around people in some form or fashion almost the entire semester and start of summer, and it doesn't help when you've hit the acceptance part of death and people are telling you (if not forcing you) to cry and let it out. It's kind of hard to when you've accepted the outcome, and have cried your eyes out already.
And I thought I told you people to not bother responding. =P It's ok. Guess ranting to people not involved in any sort of way helps slightly... I guess I just need a day off, even thought I won't get one of those until August...
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Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2009 3:34 am
You're thick.
If you really wanted to talk to any of us from high school, you could've called us. We gave up trying to call you because you never answer, and when you do, you never call us back, even when you say you will.
If all he's thinking about is sex, then you need to put your foot down about that. You don't exist for his personal pleasure, and if he can't accept that, then distance needs to be placed.
Also, telling someone not to do something will just encourage someone to do what they've been told not to do. It's time to take a deep breath and realize you have a shoulder to cry on when necessary, but you have to maintain those relationships.
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Posted: Tue Jun 02, 2009 3:54 pm
We'd probably still replying even if you threatened us. 3nodding besides, venting always helps take a few weights off your shoulders.
As far as the reproductive area goes... there are plenty of people that are to busy with their lives to even think or care whether or not they get laid. (there are other reasons too, but a busy life keeps your mind off alot of things) If that guy actually cares about you, he'd give you some space or at least try helping easing some stress off you.
Try leaving a status message letting people online know what you're up to. They'll probably feel less inclined to accuse you of "ignoring" them.=)
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