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 Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2009 12:04 pm
 July 19, 2009 Dear Diary, It's been one crazy weekend; With chichi almost leaving Gaia, causing brenda to almost have a heart attack and with me being disappointed. I could'nt help, but to at least try to make him stay. It kinda failed XD. But at the same time it didnt. Last night I talked to brenda over the phone and it was awsome. I even let her hear me sing for the first time. I need to practice alot more. Last night when I talk to shawn for only a short period; Because I was upset with him having me on speaker phone and I've done my special gift. Which Antwon heard and he never told me i was on speaker phone. I guess I was pretty mean to him. Considering I hurted his feelings by telling him If he ever leaves me on speaker phone again I'll never talk to him again. And that pretty much hurt his feelings. ~Namiko
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Posted: Sun Jul 19, 2009 6:06 pm
July 19,2009
Dear Diary,
Hello, My name is Ambra. Im 16 years old and live in Brooklyn, New York. One side of me is the shy girl that you'll love to mess with just to get me to talk. But once you do you'd regret it. The other side is a b***h that'll you'll love to hate on. And in between I'm just me. Im not the smartest girl you'll ever meet or the best chick that'll you're ever going to see, but once you get to know me better you'll fall in love with me. Im the type of person that loves to walks outside during cold winter nights. I love to cook food for my love ones and sometimes for me too haha. Im always day dreaming about having a life that would be perfect for me. People who I can trust and maybe would love someday. I love to play video games even from nintendo 64. I adore hanging out with only four of my best friends, but my two favorites are Jessica and Joey. I adore getting on the computer just to see people that I really enjoy chatting with. Im the sensitive type; That would cry over animal movies and just the simplest things in life. Im also known as the funny one in the group. I dont know why I just am. You can say its a " Natural Talent". My favorite colors are anything mixed with red, white, platnum, and blue. Well this is all I can tell you about myself. Im nothing special really. Just me
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Posted: Mon Jul 20, 2009 2:59 pm
July 20, 2009
Dear Diary,
I feel like crap. My stomach is going to make me commit suicide. I didnt ate anything all day. I only drunk two cups of ice coffee and just had a strawberry water mellon lollipop. Today I went to summer school. I had to take eight stops just to get to Borough Hall. Then walk twelve damn blocks just to go to bloody school for an hour and a half. The worst part is Taequan p***k Sanders goes there too. Thank ra I only go to one class. Goverment and Economy with Mr.Martinez sucked a** hard. But with this new summer school teacher I like. He's cool, calm, collective, and takes zero tollerence(sp?). He even let us have his cell number and wedsite to contact him for more information or help.Thankfully I only have 9 more days of summer school program. Naomi's a total trip. She broke up with jamie like 7-8 days ago. Now likes this guy whose malik's brother, Is riding Mash's jock dead on, made a love song for Jake, kissed justin, and is crushing on the history teacher. If she even thinks about dating either one of them they'll be nothing but just a simple rebound. And if Naomi gets to close for comfort tours Mash...Well all I have to say is Naomi watch out for brenda because she wouldnt hesitate to murder you. If she starts to like Xian I would seriously kick her a** lol. Even though she's a hotmess I love her because she's my sister. I dont want her to be hurt, but she's seriously in denial about her weight. I mean like a week and half ago you posted pictures of yourself on the profile. Then took them off. Once I pointed out she's in denial again. She claims to be in the gym for 2 weeks 4 hours...Im not trying to say anything but If you eat ramen right now and claim you're not fat and claim you went to the gym...You seriously have a problem. I dont know what Justin's going to do once he finds out what Naomi looks like. All i got to say is."Would you look at Naomi the same way again?" :l
~Namiko
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Posted: Tue Jul 21, 2009 10:22 am
July 21, 2009
Dear Diary,
Well its offical Naomi isnt on this guild anymore let alone is my gaian sister and I added her to my ignore list. I really dont care. She pushed me past the limit and I warned her chicken thighs is shaking on thin ice. Lalu needs to check herself before she sticks up for someone whose an emo poser. She doesnt knew her, but I cant blame her. I would stick up for my friend too. But not tours somebody that they knew longer before I had. So anyway summer school was fun today with my friends Letoya and Matt are now in my class which is awsomeness!! After school we were caught in the rain. I was soaking wet because I was the only one without an umbrella. Then some kind stranger let me have his which is very thoughtful of him. Anyway I went to mc donalds with them to have a mc cafe which was delisous. Yesterday Mash potatos wasnt on and that gotten Bree-chan very worried. I was going to be abit fearful for my chichi considering of his fragile heart >.<. I havent even told anyone but Bree-chan this but XIAN'S SO FREAKING CUTE!!!!!!!! I kinda dont care If he's a playboy o-o; But considering he plays with girls hearts; You know like the type of boy that "kisses the girls then make them cry" But I guess somewhere down there In his soul is a sweet, loving, cute, sexy, boy that doesnt have womanizer written on his face lol
~Namiko
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Posted: Wed Jul 22, 2009 10:50 am
My favorite song lyric so far
Addictive
(Chanting...)
He breaks me down, He builds me up
He fills my cup, I like it rough
We fuss, we brawl, We rise, we fall
He comes in vain, But it's okay
We do, I do, He knows the rules
He takes care of home (Hey, yeah)
Though he's not alone
I'm on his knee, He keeps me clean
And gives me things, He makes me scream, yeah...
He's so contagious, He turns my pages (Mmm...)
He's got me anxious (Oh...)
He's what I've waited for
He keeps me guessin' (Oh...), Spontaneous
He's so persuasive, And I'm his lady (Oh...oh...)
Tonight is waitin' (Tonight is waitin')
And I ain't complainin' (And I ain't complainin')
I'm entertainin' (I'm entertainin')
My number one thing and (My number one)
My back is achin' (My back is achin')
From all love makin' (From all love makin')
Oh, yes, I'm taken
Ain't no use in fakin' (Oh)
My ups, my downs, My high and my lows
From head to toe, He makes me blow
He hits the spot, He makes me hot
I'm all that he's got, And he's all that I've got
He's so contagious, He turns my pages
He's got me anxious, He's what I've waited for
He keeps me guessin' (He keeps me guessin')
Spontaneous (Spontaneous)
He's so persuasive (So persuasive)
And I'm his lady
(Rakim)
Thinkin' of a master plan
You know anything you need, baby, ask your man
You was there from a half a gram
Now it's kilos to C notes, and high fashion brass
He ball like we own the world
The only concern is you my only girl
And when we sneak into chokes, breathin' hard when I'm
squeezin' you long
Keep it strong, but I gotta hit the streets when I'm
done
It's joy and pain when you try and get ahead of the
game
It's ******** up, but you never complain
You just pray I don't killed when I hit the hood
Just another hundred mil' and I'mma quit for good
No more drug wars, trips to jail and shoot outs
To gettin' loot out for boys in bail, they'll get you
boot out
Just me and you, hour of sex and twisted
You O.G. to D.O.D. addicted
(Chanting...)
He's so contagious, He turns my pages
He's got me anxious, He's what I've waited for
He keeps me guessin', Spontaneous
He's so persuasive (So persuasive)
And I'm his lady (And I'm his lady)
He's so contagious, He turns my pages
He's got me anxious, He's what I've waited for
He keeps me guessin', Spontaneous
He's so persuasive, And I'm his lady
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Posted: Sat Jul 25, 2009 8:14 pm
July 25,2009
Dear Diary,
Last night I had a dream. It was about Shawn. I dont know how to say this without sounding like I dont make any sense at all. So here it goes. Shawn was with me in someone's house then his friends and brother(i think) were there. They were complete jerks to me and Shawn hasnt done anything to stop them :l. And at some point of the dream I was at someone's house having dinner when some big a** bug kept flying in and out of the food. It was scary yet annoying. And I was also in a classroom filled with azn people so I dont know about that part. I also had a baby boy in my dream. With some people who are my friends(I think they are). I was going to use the bathroom but ended up ditching class while listening to this mp3/cellphone/keyboard gagit which was really cool. I was depressed in my dream and Shawn was right there with me and gaved me a weak smile. What does this mean?
~Namiko
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Posted: Sun Jul 26, 2009 6:29 pm
July 26,2009
Dear Diary,
It's offical, Im now a depressed teenager. I cant blame anyone for this. Except the dream I had a while back and what happened the other night made me feel like maybe I wasnt ment to be with him. And maybe he wasnt ment to marry me. I know it'll seem like BS because I would give away everything because I feel like I wasnt the right girl for him. As I should've known that this relationship will come close to an inpass. Which means this isnt good for me. I feel like crying, but im holding back my tears. I dont want to break up with him because I dont want to end up looking for someone whose right for me. I cant help it now but Im crying. I love him so much that it hurts.
~Namiko
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