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And yet I have no one to turn to myself.

Last night, one of my cousins living with us told my mother she's moving out. She's been living with us a little over a year and finally can't stand my mother anymore. So, she'll be moving in with a friend of hers for awhile.
My mother was so upset by this, that she decided she may as well take it out on me.
So after I had a great day with some friends, she decides to yell at me for my lack of opinion, how I never talk about my dad, and how I should just go live with my aunt and uncle.
So I just sat in the car, I'm used to this. Ever since I was a child, my mother has used me as her shoulder to cry on. I rarely comfort her, because I don't find it fair that she forced me to live through the terror that was my father and her abuse towards me.
So she continues on with her rant and when we get home I just sit in my room, wishing there was someone I could talk to.
People always tell me that I can talk to them, but I just can't bring myself to believe it. I want someone to talk to, but then I think I'll become like my mother, guilting people into feeling bad for me.
I don't want to tell anyone how I feel because I'm afraid of what they'll think of me. Everyone expects me to be the strong one, I'm the one everyone goes to when they need a place to stay or someone to yell at or cry to. I don't have anyone like that, and it just gets to me from time to time.

Thanks. ^-^
I mean, there's not really anything anyone can do.
I just needed to get this off my chest.