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I have no time for those!

But srsly, this Stage Management is eating up all my time
Tho rite now i'm huntin versions of hallelujah coz its bin stuck in my head all day. Srsly inspirin me to make a short something of it [film or somesuch]
&& i wana go xmas carolin' this year.
& i wanna see xmas carol cuz its bein put on by the dept at the end of the semester.
& both the directors ill be workin with next semester are in plays around town soon, so i'd like to go see that. but wen, yaknow?

i'm in a really odd mood. usually i'm all super nazi about being good with grammar spellin and watnot, but rite now i'm against it and want to rite like this.

i wanna paint my face like an onnagata & walk around in an overly-aestheticized manner.
i wanna cut my hair on stage and make it a statement. i want to spill blood.

i want to write a series of short poems about coffee and get starbucks to carry it in one of those mini-book formats [like they have by the cashes in Chapters]

i want to scream, cry, let it all out, let everyone know about my insecurities, explain why i cry so easily, and i want them to give me a chance to prove myself before they start doubting me

it's good that it's late, otherwise i'd likely be on my way to chinatown to buy a katana, stop by a hardware store to buy a series of metal files to make sure it'd be good and sharp, and i'd prepare my self-destruction, spread posters, and lose all respectability for what i'd say to whoever would listen
but knowing the fine arts department at my univeristy, they'd find it amazing and deep and expressive of femininity and so much other bs

i need a haircut.

My car died.

I'm in Cali on vacation.

My husband is still in Texas waiting to be discharged.

Blah.