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Chapter 1: Buring holes into my skull

Bella and Alice sat in Alice’s bedroom, alone. Alice was left on Bella sitting duty whilst Edward went hunting with the others. So she was left on her own with Bella, in her bedroom, alone. She felt like she was drowsing as she sat staring at the Human girl, sprawled across one of the white leather sofas.

Bella’s chest rose and fell softly as she slumbered in a light sleep, the small vampire’s eyes following the simple movement. Her ears focused on her steady heart beat. Ba dum, ba dum, ba dum, ba dum.

“Alice what are you staring at?”

“What? How do you know I’m staring?” Alice looked up surprised, Bella’s eyes still closed and breathing normal. How didn't I notice any change in her breathing or heart rate…has she been awake long?

“I can feel your gaze burning into my skull…”

“I was just waiting for you to wake up.” She lightly, her voice small as she absentmindedly drummed her fingers against the seat. One arm wrapped around her knee as she looked down.

Bella opened her eyes looking over to the little vampire. “Alice what’s wrong?”

I can’t tell her… she loves Edward… she’d be disgusted, horrified…

“Alice seriously what’s up?” Bella sighed, pushing herself off the sofa. Moving over to the girl, she tapped her shoulder, causing her to jump. Whoa, no one surprised Alice… “Are you okay, did you see something?”

“I’m fine.” She replied, her voice rough and scratchy, as if she’d been crying.

Bella’s eyes became instantly worried. She crouched down to Alice’s levels, moving some of her hair out of the way.

Alice’s nose twitched as Bella moved closer, the scent filling her nostrils. It was so sweet, intoxicating and tempting… so arousing… Her pale eyelids fluttered, she looked up and met Bella’s chocolate brown eyes.

Bella gave Alice a small smile meeting eye contact. Their topaz depths hypnotising, she loved those eyes. They were just like Edwards, warm but more… nice and less hard. She’d noticed how beautiful Alice was before but now she seemed more so. The way her dark, spiky hair framed her pale face and its elven features accompanied small nose and plump lips, that were so… KISSABLE?!

“Alice, please! Tell me what’s wrong?”

“You wouldn’t want to know.” Alice shook her head, her tone defeated and quiet.

“Oh come on. Alice, tell me.” Bella, starting to lay a warm hand on her shoulder, a pain hit her chest as Alice flinched away. What did I do? “Okay… Is it me? What did I do?”

Alice shook her head, swiftly leaping from the sofa to the adjacent side of the room. She stood statuesque staring at Bella.

“What…oh…” Where’d she go…? Oh, there… Turing to the pixie girl, Bella frowned. “Please… please Alice, what is wrong…”

“No, I can’t…”

“You’re one of my best friends, I love you, you can tell me anything.”

“I can’t Bella.”

“Why?!”

“Because… because it will hurt you.”

“Oh in the name of… I can do hurt, Alice.” Bella groaned. Clenching her teeth she ran a frustrated hand through her hair. “I’ve done hurt!”

“I know… it’s just that… I…” Alice sighed, shaking her head unable to form a complete sentence. I can’t tell her… she wouldn’t understand, wouldn’t accept it…

“Alice! Tell me what’s wrong or so help me…”

“I love you!”

Chapter 3: The history and many uses of the pine needle

“Of cou …Edward…!” Alice broke off with a gasp, her golden eyes clouding over and body going still as a statue.

“What?” Bella asked breathlessly, concerned at Alice’s sudden reaction.

“Edward…he’s coming, now!”

“What!?...Alice what are you doing?!”

Alice jumped of the leather sofa, setting Bella’s arms by her side and vampire sped over to the window. Her face, smooth and concentrated.

“Getting prep… 30 seconds”

“10…”

“5…”

“Alice…”

“Bella!” the male voice called from downstairs as the bedroom door, whooshed open. He was suddenly by the girl’s side. “I’ve missed you!”

His grin stretched wide across his face and eyes crinkled as he pulled her up into a hug, kissing her quickly.

“Oh, I missed you too...” Bella smiled pulling her gaze away fro his golden eyes and dazzling smile to glance at the stoic Alice. The little vampire stood in a stiff pose, her eyes focusing out the window.

“Alice?” Edward followed Bella’s gaze, cocking his head to the side, still grinning happily. “Why?”

“Because!”

Her voice was cold and sharp, Bella shuddered. It sounded so dangerous, so vampire… She never could have imagined that her little fried could sound so threatening.

“Sorry, but I must excuse myself.” Gritting her teeth, she leapt out of the window. Her landing silent but around a mile from the house a large crunch and crack vibrated through the air.

“Okay…” Edward looked taken back by her hostility, confused he turned to Bella again. “Love has she been like this al weekend?”

“Um no, just a few minutes…what was she thinking about…?”

“The history and many uses of the pine needle. She’s just got to alternative bedding with the Viking’s when camping in forests.” Shaking his head he lightly, pulled Bella back down onto the sofa. “What was wrong with her that she didn’t want me to hear? She was concentrating awfully hard.”

“Um… woman problem…?” Bella mentally thumped herself for the pathetic excuse. Woman problems, I couldn’t have said jasper or hungry… yea hungry would’ve been good. Idiot!

“W o m a n problems…” Edward raised his brow, enunciating ‘woman’ slowly, his sculpted face confused. “Is…are you alright?”

“Oh no, it isn’t me. I’m fine, super fine even.” Bella shrugged, trying to be nonchalant. I’m not lying… I am fine, more than fine. Her lips still tingled form the kiss with Alice. It’s normal to get like this right? Everyone has an experimental phase. You hear about girls and guys doing it all the time… But then usually those girls don’t have boyfriends who they literally can’t live without… I don’t LOVE Alice, right? I love love Edward, were like soul mates, I’m his ‘La tuacantante’. But Alice...

“What are you thinking about?” Edward asked quietly after a few minutes of long silence.

“Nothing…”

“Bella, I know something’s going on in your mind.” Edward smiled, kissing her forehead. “You’ve got concentrated written all over your face.”

“You don’t want to know.” She smiled, shaking her head and looking to the ‘escape window’. I wonder where she is… Is she okay?

“Bella…” Edward gave a light, frustrated growl. Exhaling he met her gaze, leaning his cool forehead against he’s. ”Please, tell me…”

Bella’s mouth opened to start to explain as she stared into his hypnotic eyes. No! Stupid cheating vampire, using his dazzle on me… What can I tell him that won’t get Alice in trouble or make Edward worry…? What on earth would I be thinking about, Now of all times?! I’m with Edward, alone. I never think of anything apart from him, us...

Bella stretched up, kissing him lightly, running her tongue over his lips. They seemed colder than hers…

“Bella, no distractions. Now, what is on your mind? I really want to know.”

I never think of anything from him, us…us! “Sex.”

“Ugh, Bella! We’ve talked about this. I can’t, we can’t ever.” Edward groaned exasperated, pinching the bridge of his nose.

“I know… I was just pondering.” She smiled weakly, wrapping her arms tighter around him. Pulling herself up into a deeper kiss.

“You will be the second death of me woman” Edward chuckled, mumbling though the kiss.

“Mmhmm.” She mumbles, continue to kiss him, enthusiastically. Mmm… there we go…*sigh* Edward…Its different…. It’s nice, but… Dammit! Feel it Bella. Slowly she pulled away where she would usually push it too far

“Mmm...” Edward sighed with a crooked grin covering his face, burying his face in her hair. “So did you have fun this week veto the last few minutes?”

“I had a good time.” Bella smiled, with a curt nod. Today was certainly fun.. no I shouldn’t…

“So does that mean ‘m forgiven for having Alice hold you hostage again?” He smirked, looking down at her, trough his eye lashes.

“Of course...”Bella smiled her heart fluttering as he did his ‘dazzle’. See, that still works…

Chapter 5: Other side of the glass

Alice had continued to release her pent up emotions throughout the forest; her small hand balled into fists and throat tight, her eyes felt strained as they beseeched to cry the tears could not shed. Her long dead heart throbbed and tightened as the thoughts of Bella passed through her mind. Thoughts of Edward and Bella…

His arms wrapped around her warm waist… !

His lips pressing against hers… !

His fangs piercing her skin… !

Always him… it would never be her. Edward had gotten Bella; he had saved her from the car. He has saved her from James… him… Her topaz eyes seemed to blur out almost as if she was having a vision, the fog think and heavy as a low hiss escaped her lips.

*BANG!* *CRACK!* *CRASH!*

Slowly she unclenched her fists; taking a long, deep, unneeded breath. Her frustrations now at a low simmer; emotions under control again. Her eyes fluttered open taking in the evidence of her rampage. Tree had been ripped from their roots, trunks had been shattered and shrubberies torn apart. She had obliterated a small section of the forest creating a shambolic clearing; it looked as though a crazed lunatic had driven a wrecking ball through it. She felt ashamed of herself, she had lost control… the dangers of what could have happened haunting her thoughts. What if a hiker a had passed through or she’d been closer to humans. Could she have stopped herself hurting them? This kind of destruction as expected from Emmett or even jasper but not her… not little calm Alice.

/ / /

The tree branch murmured as she landed on it delicately, the wind rustled the trees casting shadows on the wall. Alice peered through Bella’s window looking at her still form, curled under her quilt. She loved chances like this, looking through the window as Bella slumbers. Edwards was out hunting, leaving Emmett to patrol the forests and her to patrol fate. She enjoyed watching Bella sleep, her eyes burning into the humans back. Alice’s keen ears listened to her shallow breathing rise and fall, the beat of her human heart going in a lovable rhythm through her brain. It was her favourite sound, as was Bella her favourite smell and her eyes her favourite colour.

It was weird how she could just sit here at watch her for hours, memorising each movement and rhythm. She could tell if she had a nightmare or was dreaming about something important. She could tell if she had a cold, if she was sleeping heavy or light.

Alice has been watching Bella sleep for the last three months whenever Edward was away hunting of for the few minutes whilst he changed. Yet no matter how often she took this pleasure, she had not yet grown tired of it. A gust of wind howled, making the leaves and branches rustle, blowing her pixie cut hair around her face. Leaning further forward she pressed her head against the window, inches closer to the girl she loved. Even through the thick panes of glass, I could hear her steady breathing. The low steady tune lulled over her mind hypnotising her. Suddenly, Bella’s position shifted. Her breathing was now hitched, her open eyes facing the window. Alice’s mouth dropped open a little and eyes met her. She seemed to lose herself in them, that beautiful brown which could melt the coldest heart… even a vampire’s.

So beautiful… *sigh* Now I have to leave, she can’t think I was really here…

“Alice…wait no don’t…” Bella called out quietly as she saw Alice’s eyes start to turn away, hanging around with Edward she reaction were getting a little faster. Another second and she would have been gone. Rubbing her drowsy eyes, she pushed herself up, fixing her baggy pyjama top. Alice was here… she would always have been this happy to see her peppy vampire friend right? It wasn’t just the kiss thing? The kiss! I had forgotten, I thought it was some perverted dream… but it was good… She said she loved me… do I love her? No I cant, I love Edward… right?

“Alice wont you come in? A neighbour might see you… well catch a glimpse.”

Rolling her eyes the small vampire, straightened from her crouch then she was gone.

“Good morning.” Her angelic voice called from the rocking chair is the corner; the one Edward always sat in. Smiling Bella turned to face the vampire, glancing to the window. Closed, it amazed her how they could just be in without noticing a sound or movement.

“It’s not morn… oh…” turning to the clock her sentence trailed off. 03:12am.

“Sorry if I woke you… I was just…”

“You didn’t wake me. Ha! Like you could, I just woke up, felt like… well someone was here and, I was warm” Bella smiled, cheeks flushed from the heat. Sighing she tossed her quilt off her warm skin, revealing her baggy t-shirt which ended mid thigh. It had been too warm for her sweat pant.

Alice’s eyes trailed along Bella’s body following the bare skin of her leg and remaining on the hem of the t-shirt, swallowing a lump in her throat. Her skin looked so soft and warm, her legs so smooth and … No! Shouldn’t be looking there!

Her brow furrowed, and she frowned, looking at the floor. “So Alice, why are you here? I thought it was Emmett’s turn to look after me. I’m pretty sure he ran off to the forest just as E… he left.” Why did she feel guilty saying his name around her? Edward is her brother…

Alice swallowed again, thinking. How could I tell her what I was really doing here? Taking in her images, she was like a drug. I sat on that tree savouring my next hit. I couldn’t, so I settled for a half-truth. “I was making sure you were safe for myself. I wanted to make sure you were in no danger at all.”

“Oh okay…” am I disappointed? Did I wasn’t her to come here for something else? Kiss me! Was all I wanted to say right now, why? I don’t know… s**t…

How was it I wanted Alice to kiss me. Alice my best friend, my FEMALE best friend. I’m not gay, I’ve never liked girls… How could I even fancy someone else when I’m with Edward?! They most perfect being on the planet and love me. Is this some self-destructive urge to ruin it because he’s too good for me? No… but Alice is so sweet and happy and hot… Uhoh…

I like Alice Cullen…. ********!

Chapter 7: Its tearing me apart like inside

Bella had been quiet since she realised she liked Alice, that night where she’d caught her on the tree. It seemed so ******** p in her mind, that both these perfect vampires loved her and that she liked them both. It was unfair to them and she was a selfish b***h to keep leading them on. She didn’t tell Edward she had kissed Alice and she hadn’t told Alice no. it was her fault it had gotten this far. That Alice needed to watch her and the secret kisses. Alice had kissed her again that night and once again this morning… the secret kisses were wonderful but tearing her apart. She was meant to love Edward, kiss Edward… but his kisses felt wrong… like they weren’t right.

Shaking her head and focusing her friend at he lunch table once again she sighed looking up to see two set of concerned golden eyes on her. Edward wrapped his arm around his waist smiling; whilst Alice gave a concentrated look as she obviously covered her thoughts.

“What’s wrong love?”

“Nothing I just spaced out a minute, thinking about… um… my Mom…” of course she was lying to him, which she hated. She loved Edward and she didn’t want to hurt him; but she didn’t want to hurt Alice either… who seemed to be hurting as Edward leaned close to me, kissing my cheek. Her jaw was clenched; Edward kept glancing to her with a confused look. Bella wondered what she was thinking about; she had thought about pine needles and runic alphabets… she was bound to run out of things eventually.

“Oh okay.” He smiled, settling on her explanation. He knew she worried about her mother she always had a little bit of her thinking to her Mom. Living with Phil happily.

As they sat around the lunch table time passed; the group talked and laughed, the visible line seemed a little more ‘there’ today. Tyler and Mike in-depth with conversation the only person in no mans land was Angela. Bella liked Angela she was a true friend, the girl had tried to initiate conversation a few times but she was to preoccupied in her thoughts and worries. If she could talk about it, it might help but she couldn’t tell Angela about the vampire part or the sleeping in her room or Edwards hunting… she couldn’t talk to Edward or Alice without hurting one of them in the process…who could she tell?

The bell rang signalling the end o the painful torment of sitting at the table with both the vampires and the friends she ignored. As she stood she felt Edwards’s cool arm, link through hers. *Sigh*… Absentmindedly she was dragged off towards biology, where they did work which she knew and Edward practically did for her anyway. The class passed in such a blur the next thing she actually noticed was being dropped off home, and telling Edward she would see him later. Dropping down on the sofa in the living room she flicked through channels on the widescreen, not taking an interest in anything. Her mind still running a thousand miles an hour over her feelings, her confusing her hurt… she didn’t deserve to hurt, this was worse for Alice and well Edward doesn’t know. But she has to see him kiss me, hold me and treat me as his; when she thinks me as hers…

She had to decide right now; the time for playing and handing about is over… I have to choose.