I feel so depressed. The fire in me died.
A while ago I was ready to do what I wanted most.
Like create a video game, because I have not experienced making that. Then I want to see maiku-kun. I want to see Cyn's kids. I feel so discouraged by everyone around me. They just kill the fire that was burning in me. Its so very sad when they say "you can't do it", without even me trying. I won't know neither will they until I have tried doing what I wanted to. How can anyone even say that without trying, how?

There is so much to do here, so much. I'd like to do all if I could. But I will have to go according to the priorities. I don't understand people who just wants one thing from their life, why are they scared to ask for more. And then they are the ones who discourage others. They kill me each time when they discourage me. I feel my heart bleeding. The battle isn't over yet. I am as hopeful as ever. burning_eyes