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Hello everyone, I am Oborosen. But if you wish to you can call me Ethan.
I haven't been a member of Gaia for very long and I must say that its a very great site. The majority of the individuals Iv come across are very agreeable and are helpful in any way they can be.

So as to first explain myself, I am a former military man who has been around this world and seen almost every bit of occult energy that it has to offer. I spent most of my time as a type of clergy man to those who would listen and had questions about that they didn't understand. Even as I am not really a priest, I do consider myself a man of many cloths and being as such I chose to follow the path of the White Lotus which as some people may not know is a mass gathering of faiths so to speak.
I have the word I wanted to put on the tip of my tongue but I cant recall it. Besides I also think it would be very dickish to Wikipedia it at the moment.
Speaking solely for myself I do many things to occupy myself when I'm not working. Though I do work a few jobs that suet my taste. The one that I cherish the most is my work as an appraiser. As well as public relations work also.
I'm an avid artist, a writer, and studier of the arts. The only thing I would like to add to the list is being able to play the violin.
As for my occult history. I have none in my blood so to speak, or that I know of. My mother was adopted and we where raised Baptiste. I did get into the arts at a young age though thanks to an old friend and the book store he ran at the time. I studied whatever I could get my hands on till his store was destroyed. Thanks to him however I was given a start in my life of knowledge. He even allowed me to keep some of the books that survived.

So know I keep whatever information I can remember or record filed away safely and I keep searching for whatever I haven't seen or heard. Weeding out what lies or truths are inside. I like what I do, I like to think at least it gives me purpose beyond that which I already have.
However I must say that this path has harmed me, and those around me. As well I don't see an end in sight. But such is the price everyone pays for something they love. I have lost family and friends in the past because of the occult and those who do not and will never seek to understand it.

But such is my path and I will live it.
May your travels fare well and thank you.

I guess the only way I can answer this is that I'm mostly a person who doesn't want to waste my days just fearing what is out there. I know that I strive to understand all that I can before I go. But during my time in the Navy this aspect of myself was only amplified. Either I read what material I could find on shore when we docked. Or I would check reliable sources on the net when we where able to log on unhindered.
I even check in from time to time with old friends that may have new information for me. I contact site managers directly to see if I can get any direct data when I get interested in there collection. But I can say that this may all stem from a disorder that I have, and one that manifested in me some time in the past.

I have always been a strange type of obsessive compulsive individual, but to add to that a past event caused me to become a very extreme insomniac. That and a case of chronic nightmares that Iv had for longer then I can try to remember. Makes me a rather estranged person. But the biggest surprise to me is how well I'm able to keep and compose myself. I have a very charismatic attitude as Iv been told and conversing with large groups doesn't bother me in the slightest.
However I still have to true understanding to the void I wish to fill. Its just an erg that I cannot put my finger on. Like my nightmares I don't know where it comes from or why. Even going so far as to incorporate these things into my sketches and drawing. While it helps to lessen them, the ergs still persist and do not show a chance of calming any time soon.

I hope that answers your question.

Well its good to see that you let all that out Antony. I guess you have grown in the last few years.

I must ask one question however.
........Is your brother still wearing all that Victorian goth clothing or is he go back to dressing like Ziggy Stardust's stunt double.