Mother told me to be careful, and to have Filli with me at all times to protect me. I told her not to worry, and that Filli will be on my shoulder like she always is. Though I know this isn't true. Filli will most likely be sleeping durning the day. She is nocturnal after all. And even if she is going to change her sleeping habits, she is going to be the rudest guest at the castle with the sunlight to irritate her.
But at least she's accompaning me there. It would be a lonely carriage ride, let alone, stay at the castle without a familiar. I wish Ren could come, but he refuses to come along. He keeps saying that he isn't 'some house pet', and prefers to live alone. Which is strange, because he often seeks my company in the mornings when I go pick apples off of Ms. Yila's trees. (It's a good thing she's a good natured sort.) Just this morning, he was even waiting for me, his ears all nice and tall so he could hear me coming.
I think that Ren misses his pack. Perhaps that's why he likes mine and Filli's company. He talks about them an awful lot, after all. Except for his old mate, Chiru. He doesn't like talking about her. The only reason I know about her is because he slipped once and unintentionaly mentioned her. Though he locked himself up when I asked any further questions. I wonder what happened between them?
But anyway, Ren made me sad when he wished me farewell this morning. I was close to crying, but I resisted, as Ren hates any sort of waterworks. He told me to stay safe, like my mom, and to not push Filli too much over her temper. He said that I didn't have to come back if I didn't want to, should I find a 'mate' of my own. "You find love in the strangest places." He had said with a shrug of his big beafy shoulders. "And no doubt this castle is a strange place." He said with that cocky grin of his. I'll miss that grin.
I assured him that I'll come back, even if this castle was the strangest place of all. Though he just shrugged his big shoulders again and twitched his muzzle. His expression is what made me so sad. Usually, Ren is a happy and carefree sort. But he looked troubled and worried. And even sad, might I say. It just broke my heart to see him like that.
I'd like to think that I'll come back all safe and sound. But I have no doubt in my mind that there will be someone from Avarice who will have it out for me. I just hope that they have a deep dark fear of owls.
-- Solace
