A song i wrote about 2 years back, i think its pretty crappy, but it represents me.
Why am I?!? So damn blind?!?
I can’t find, the life that was mine
Shrouded in fear, of what I’ve done
Where am I, what have I become
I’ve destroyed the one that I was, and
Become the thing that I am now
How did I turn into this thing I am
What has become of my past self has it completely died?!
Where did I Go so wrong?!?
Why can’t I, feel alive
I die here, shrouded in my fear
Forever in hell I’ve become one who has lost it all!
I can’t take the fact that I’ve died
So vile and destructive was I not doing the right thing
I died for my god then why am in such a place of suffering
Was I not right?
Why am Not in light?!?
Why can’t I, show you I’m still right
Please help me out of this unnecessary hell!
My hands are died red with their blood, but
My courage still blazes strong
What is this thing I am, why is it so vicious
This thing I am is so vile and in turmoil of who I am
I will never accept this I’m not a demon
I’ve destroyed this thing I am but it just returns with more blood
My soul is broken and taken by this thing I am
I am not grand I am an demon…..
I accept this thing I am and go on living with my sins
Please forgive this thing I am and the blood on its hands.