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 Posted: Sat Jan 29, 2011 5:25 pm
If any of you remember the posts I made earlier this [school] year, there's this girl I've been obsessed with. I slowly learned her name, which dorm she lives in, her friends, hobbies, facebook page, etc. I even wrote a lovely story about seeing her for the first time that earned me an A+ from my Advanced Creative Fiction professor. Sometimes, I guess you could say I felt attraction to the point where I wanted to be her. Other times, I simply really wanted to know/befriend/date her. Thoughts of her were taking over my life, and my boyfriend became increasingly jealous and told me I had to stop thinking about her. So I blocked her from facebook (even though we were never facebook friends to begin with) and continued my life. Until that point, however, I had slowly been modifying my lifestyle to match what I perceived to be hers. I added some of the same interests on facebook, I read books she likes, listened to her music...
...Now back to the present. After having her blocked for a month, I decided it was time to unblock her. A few nights ago, while visiting some friends in the same building, she walked into my dorm. She had gotten lost, and wandered into the bathroom to see if anyone could point her to her friend's room, and there I was brushing my teeth. I almost fainted. Here was this woman, whom I secretly admired for 4 months now, talking to me. And she really liked me! She thought I was pretty, she liked my hair and my outfit... we became friends. We hang out now. I still haven't told her how I've felt about her all that time, and I'm not even sure yet if she's lesbian/bisexual, but I'm at least happy that we're friends. I feel like a creep for feeling that way all this time, and for liking someone in addition to my boyfriend of 2 years, but I've been in such a magical stupor these past few days. I feel like a damned magician. She thinks being friends was her idea.
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