You never go
you're always here, suffocating me
I'm dying under this facade of sheets and blankets
like Romeo and Juliet
except I'm Rosaline left without her admirer
alone and just now missing what I had before.
My best defense was a smirk and a sneer
and a well-placed quip to whisper in your ear
Make you shiver and snap back at me
like I'm deserving of an answer
except, don't I deserve an answer from someone who's actually here?
We're like Bonny and Clyde
except my head just got blown off
and my heart's still beating
still bleeding
still begging for someone to come make it all better
like a six-year-old after a bike crash
with a skinned knee.
But you got hit too
and you can't say it will be all better and mean it, it can't be true
even as you fade, you paste on a smile
and tell me a lie I can never believe.
You're never here but you always stay
You never go but your presence barely lingers, fading in and out,
like a ghost, haunting my actions
whispering in my ear
now I shiver, now I shake.
I can't find the strength to snap back at you.
I can't find the perseverance or the will to look at you
to see in your eyes my reflection
to see my skin and my bones, showing through the wounds
seeing my still-beating, still-bleeding heart
through eyes that are no longer there.
Rosaline wept for the lover she never took
but I weep for the lover I had and lost.
Bonny mourned as her beloved died
I pretend everything's fine as you simply fade away like a spirit
never gone and always leaving
barely here and I'm still bleeding
from that cut you gave me
the fatal nick
the lethal stab
that slashed my heart and stabbed at my legs and blew my head off.
All in one fatal swoop, all in one moment.
My life's blood spills
just as you finally fade
and leave me to be immortal
leave me to be eternally here
forever gone.
you're always here, suffocating me
I'm dying under this facade of sheets and blankets
like Romeo and Juliet
except I'm Rosaline left without her admirer
alone and just now missing what I had before.
My best defense was a smirk and a sneer
and a well-placed quip to whisper in your ear
Make you shiver and snap back at me
like I'm deserving of an answer
except, don't I deserve an answer from someone who's actually here?
We're like Bonny and Clyde
except my head just got blown off
and my heart's still beating
still bleeding
still begging for someone to come make it all better
like a six-year-old after a bike crash
with a skinned knee.
But you got hit too
and you can't say it will be all better and mean it, it can't be true
even as you fade, you paste on a smile
and tell me a lie I can never believe.
You're never here but you always stay
You never go but your presence barely lingers, fading in and out,
like a ghost, haunting my actions
whispering in my ear
now I shiver, now I shake.
I can't find the strength to snap back at you.
I can't find the perseverance or the will to look at you
to see in your eyes my reflection
to see my skin and my bones, showing through the wounds
seeing my still-beating, still-bleeding heart
through eyes that are no longer there.
Rosaline wept for the lover she never took
but I weep for the lover I had and lost.
Bonny mourned as her beloved died
I pretend everything's fine as you simply fade away like a spirit
never gone and always leaving
barely here and I'm still bleeding
from that cut you gave me
the fatal nick
the lethal stab
that slashed my heart and stabbed at my legs and blew my head off.
All in one fatal swoop, all in one moment.
My life's blood spills
just as you finally fade
and leave me to be immortal
leave me to be eternally here
forever gone.
