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Well as of lately I have been going through a whole crap load of problems relating to my vamparism. One, The constant need to feed, even when I had fed that same day, and filled my energy up to capacity.

Two, So many freinds that I thought I could trust have left me just ebcause of what I am, they think I was a spawn of the devil and they run away from me. Hell I thought I could trust my own family and they rid of me.

Three, me adn my wife are worried kinda that our lil ariel when she becomes of age, all the things that she will have to go through......All the people that will elave her life cause of the the fact of what she is. We already know thatt she will be a kin of sorts. It scares us to death to think of what might happen to her.......

Just so many things are happening at the moment, and I dont really know what to do with it all. Are any of you guys expereinceing things like this?

First of all I would like to say sorry to hear about everythign going the way it si in your life. Just keep strong and stay in there. It will get better eventually.

Secondly, as far as the friends go. It goes to show who really are your friends and who aren't. No offence intended to the pople you once called friends. As I myself dont tell my family or any friends I o make what I am. Not untilI knwo I can absolutely trust them with knowing what I am and not leavingme high and dry.

Thirdly, As far as your daughter I presume? That since she will be raised by you and your wife. as i supsect youw ill try to seek out other kin be they vampire or whatever. In that you will eventually be around more p[eople liekus. As for later in years. Just try to teach her to be open minded and acceptive to whathappens. You need to let her know what could happen to her friends if she tells them what she is. So as to let her know, so when and if it happens it wont hit her so hard.

I afraid to tell my family about me... Not just being a vampire, but also a lesbian... So, yea, I can somewhat feel your struggle Kit... I hope that you raise your daughter to be a good person and that you warn her of the many things that could happen to her.

Hey Kit, it's your sis. I wanted to tell you that I love you and these problems will work themselves out. Ariel will be different, yes, but she will have people who will love her for who she is. She will find friends who understand her for what she is and will love her just the same. Just stand by your daughter, my beautiful niece, and all will be well. Remind her she is loved every single day.

Don't hesitate to tell her what she is though. She comes from a powerful family line, on both sides, and she deserves to know who and what she is.

Our family will come around Kit. I know they will. Just keep your head high and never regret who you are. If you do, you are letting them win. I'll be right beside you bro, never forget that. I love you, and so does Sarah. That is all that matters, right? Who cares about those friends who deserted you. They didn't know what they were missing. I know you, and I know that at this moment they are regretting it. Just don't let it get you down. And if it dows, come to me. I'll help you through it. That's what a sister is for, right? 4laugh

It sounds to me like you are not feeding correctly. I do not know in which manner you feed, but feeding correctly is essential!

Perhaps you could read my post on Meet the Beast and that could help you. Another thing I always teach my newly awakened is how to prepare yourself for feeding. Yes, there is a way to do that. And it's essential to being able to make your feeding last for quite a while. There is no need to feed every day or several times a day.

Are you familiar with grounding and cenetering? This technique is very beneficial in preparing yourself to receive the prana (energy). Meditating and slow breathing are essential as well. Once you have grounded and centered and found your center, the prana that you pull in will distribute slowly and last you for a while. Now, there is no set time on how long the prana will last you because it is different for everyone.

Once you have learned how to do the above techniques, it will become as first nature to you and you won't have to think about it or do the exercise prior to feeding because your body will automatically go into that mode. It's training your body for proper feeding.

I hope this has helped you some.

i've been lucky. my friends have been open to what i am, some even agree with therianthropy and vampirism. some have embraced it and even offered their blood. I have, however, lost a few friends and been ostracized since my awakenings. some of the time it doesnt even have to do with me mentioning everything. alot of peopel have begun to find me 'creepy'. my guess is that it's because my energy signiture has changed and become 'wrong'. even people who aren't psy-sensitives can pick up on that. all i can say is that this sort of thing happens. one simply has to learn to roll with the punches so to speak.

These are all very typical problems. Try not to let yourself be overwhelmed by it. I know it can be difficult to keep a level-head at times, but things will get better. Having to feed more often? Easy solution.. find yourself a donor.. even if it's your lover. In fact, I find that's the best way to go about it anyway.. Feeding should (ideally) occur between to consenting people.

Your friends are judging you, and leaving you? Sounds to me like you need to exercise more caution with who you tell. Use descretion, it will make your life a HELL of alot easier. Most people should NOT know at all. I can only think of THREE people who know about me, that are not vamps. One is my lover, and the others are Ex-lovers. Try and find more Vamps to talk to about your issues.. don't share that part of your life with everyone. Normal people will simply mark you off as a crazy person.. They won't want to talk to you, they'll label and shun you. You could end up in a nut-house.. So watch your mouth around regular people. It's human nature to hate what they can't understand.

Worried about your child? Again, the solution is fairly simple. Try a wiccaning.. (even if you're not wiccan, it doesn't matter.) You bless the child, and shield it from harm. From supernatural, or physical harm.. doesn't matter. Also helps to align the child positively from the get-go. Aside from that all you can do is start off by teaching it the simple facts fromt he get-go. Show it crystals.. play with Ki balls.. it will make the transition into awakening (usually around 13) alot easier. Then you can just throw literature at the kid anyhow.. and if he/she asks, then you can indulge it with your own know-how.


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AIM- DespondantDream