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Hey ladies, I've been really confused as to who I am lately.

For many years I've been thinking that I'm bisexual, and I've told 4 friends that I am. But now, I'm so confused and kinda scared that I might be a lesbian. I've had a few crushes on girls, and when I was younger I did have crushes on boys. When I'm walking down the street, if a pretty girl walks by, yeah I do turn my head and check her out.
I think the male genital area grosses me out. I can't look at it, or think about it without being a little grossed out. But, I'm not saying guys are gross, most of my friends in fact are boys.
I'm also kinda scared of thinking that I might be a lesbian. I feel that I don't want to exclude anyone, or just thinking that I may not be attracted to boys scares me. I have no idea why.

I've never had a boyfriend, or girlfriend. I've never had my first kiss, and I'm pretty much 20 years old.

I'm sorry if this isn't a lot of information, but I can always add stuff if you ask. I just don't like being confused with myself, and I guess I have some anxiety from it. .. I like to be sure of who I am. Hope someone could help me out some way.

In the past the guys I did like, I could never tell them I liked them, it just didn't feel right telling them. And the guys I did like were really good friends of mine.

And yeah, boobs do rock!

No, I've been in a relationship before, or on a real date..
But, I think if I do go on a date with either gender I may understand myself better.

Thanks smile

Your story is actually very similar to my best friend. She is a lesbian, and she has halfway come to terms with that fact. She knows she is, but she doesn't want to come out. For some reason, lesbian is a lot harder for the world to accept than bi. (for who knows what reason) And I think that is a lot of where the fear comes from, to be honest, ^ that girl, is right, you may never really know. Personally, I would not think about it too much, the only thing you really need to worry about, is who you are with at the moment. And as far as thinking male genitalia is gross, really doesn't mean much, I am pansexual, I think p***s's are the ugliest thing in the world, but I love my boyfriend with everything I am.

I love giving advice and since I went through the same thing I can help! so I'll tell you my story and see if it helps you. First I started expecting I liked girls in high school, and t first I told my frieds that I was bi and identified as that. Eventually I realized that it was just an excuse a way to deny that I was really a lesbian. I wanted to deny it so bad because of my religious upbringing. anyway eventually i just didn't identify as anything just someone who went where her heart took her (basically bi) it wasn't until recently actually that I started just identifying as a lesbian I mean no offense but guy genitalia just creeps me and grosses me out (not guys just their private bleh) I mean my best friend right no is a guy. The point is that you ust have to accept yourself, it may be hard but in the end it makes life a lot better. also just sayin that I am ganna blame society for making people who aren't heterosexual to feel like they can't be who they are or say how they feel. Society needs to change the way they see the norm. just sayin.