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I've been having a lot of trouble lately with pornography. Before I got saved, I used to look at pornography every single day, and I had no problem with it. Now that I am saved, it makes me feel like utter crud when I do it, but it's still very difficult even though I know that God doesn't like it.

The Holy Spirit has convicted me more times than I can count because of watching porn, and even with them, I still have trouble forcing myself not to look at it. I've tried praying, telling my mother and having her pray with me, and even installing a program with a password that I wouldn't remember, in order to block myself from going to the bad websites. But it only worked for a couple of weeks. I ended up giving in and restoring my computer to factory settings just so I could get a "quick" fix and be able to watch it again.

I need serious prayer. But more than that, I need self control. It's starting to ruin my life, and I feel like demons are coming around me more now that I've been doing it. Ever since I gave in and started it, I've been having trouble sleeping at night, because I feel demonic presences trying to keep me awake, and bother me.

Please, please pray for me. I don't want to do this anymore, and I've tried everything.

It's amazing that you say that, because I actually have been giving in to certain small things (although never small in God's eyes) that could possibly have led to the pornography. Thank you, I will pray for that as well.

I recommend asking Christ for strength and stay on normal sites when the temptations start. I like echi but I will not watch that stuff any longer, they took anime and perverted it. Create yourself an imaginary husband you really love and make him so irresistible to you that all you can think about is that fictional him until you get a real husband. A guy I know found a way to overcome lust of the body, he told me he somehow developed a crush on a fictional woman and he over time created a scapegoat fiancee and is now training his mind to be great husband like but not perverted to his wife when a real one come along.

I asked him what do you do to this fictional fiancee while mentally training for a real fiancee one day. He said he focus on loving this fictional woman so much that foul and perverted things burn up in him. He later said he really love this fictional woman like heart ____ heart ... and that he is ready for a real woman now mentally and no more perverted crap. I ask him what if perverted things show up again then what I asked asked, he said then I focus on loving her even more like crazy. I asked him how much love those this simulation invisible woman get from you, he said so much love that a actual woman would be flinching pulling me away if she isn't built to handle all that love.

I was like wow
(I guess this picture fit him but replace the orange haired girl as a boy.)
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But I admit he was weird! Is this deed he is practicing healthy?

It has affected me and my friends. It wasn't easy and it still isn't so I will pray for you! heart