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 Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2012 2:10 pm
(*caries this post over to new rp*)
Oh Faranth he was bowing and closer and... there was an amusing sound that may have escaped her lips as she managed to bow and quickly... flee. Shards, but this one would probably be held against her for a while! "I-I bid you... a g-good day as well." She squeaked over her shoulder before slipping inside the safety of her hut. Or at least she had assumed it would be safe. However the rigidness of Kindra's body and the fist that had been raised made her rethink that theory.
"Kindra... ?" She said softly, not moving from the door until her friend crumpled. And then she was moving quickly to sit by her side and murmur soft words to soothe her. Shellit, what had happened?! Had... Z'fer hurt her? The thought made her stomach roil.
Cepheith, see if you can get anything from Suunath?
"Shhh. It'll be okay." She said quietly, hand resting on Kindra's arm. "And in answer, you threw a naked man at me, that's what!" Narisa tried to tease lightly, but she was very worried about her friend. "Hey... tell me what happened?"
Calanoth. Cepheith nodded her head towards the Bronze, settling down as she discerned no threat from Calanoth. Suunath, what has made yours so upset? Mine is very worried. She didn't bother to keep Calanoth in the dark, sharing her thoughts with him as well.
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Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2012 2:18 pm
Kindra sobbed again and leant into Narisa's shoulder. She knew Narisa meant well but she wasn't in the mood for joking about Z'fer. "Narisa.... i'm so ashamed... i mean, yes it was out dragons but... i WANTED him .." she shuddered, "i just want to scrub myself raw, i feel .... " she sighed between sobs, "I...i betrayed N'mol .. we j..j...just got to telling each other how we feel.... and this" She choked up, her throat tightening against explaining anything more.
Suunath sighed and settled back down now that Calanoth wasn't leaving just yet. "Mine did not like the fact it was Calanoth's in her bed she says it is because she did not choose him as i chose Calanoth" the Gold gave the impression of a frown "She was very angry when he did not leave when she told him to, i do not understand, her memory was a good one, why would she be angry?" she asked the older Queen, suddenly unsure of herself, there had been no older Gold to teach her some things, perhaps this was something she had been lacking.
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Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2012 2:45 pm
Seeing her fellow Goldrider so upset, Narisa gave up on trying to joke and cheer her up. She wrapped an arm around her and just offered a friendly presence. Between hearing Kindra's broken sentences and having Cepheith relay what Suunath said, Narisa felt she understood the situation a little better. "Aw, hun. It'll be alright." She murmured, biting at her lip. Faranth, was this what she would eventually have to deal with? "Don't be ashamed! I... I don't think your... feeling of want was... completely yours." She said quietly. "I'm sure N'mol understands this!" Shards, she hoped he did. But... Kindra was so upset and ashamed.
Cepheith tilted her head, considering what Suunath asked and searching her rider's mind. I do not fully understand it myself. She sighed, letting her talons dig absently into the ground. I believe it is her fear of what Tyeth's will think? Because she cares deeply for him and he did not catch you? The older Gold snorted, not completely understand this herself. Humans are difficult to understand at times. But do not feel that you chose wrong, sister.
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Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2012 3:06 pm
Suunath settled down beside Calanoth who had, now his rider had stalked off and the angry feelings were gone, also settled back down, for now Suunath had claimed Calanoth as hers, as much at the Bronze claimed Suunath. She would forget in time and Tyeth would be her favourite Bronze again but for now Calanoth had Flown her so Calanoth was hers, she knew Cepheith wouldn't take him from her, just as she had never shown interest in Tyeth.
Kindra tried to breath, she knew she was hyperventilating a little from crying but it was hard to stop. She'd hoped so badly that it was N'mol she'd been waking up with, she ALMOST blamed Suunath but she knew it wasn't how dragons worked, sure they took the rider's preferences into account but it didn't guarantee that the outcome would got the way the rider wanted.
"But Narisa... i remember it all, even through the Dragonlust.... even... after they had finished mating i wanted..." she choked up again, pulling the blanket tighter around her and drawing her knees up towards her chin. "Look.. look what he did before i stopped fighting him" she said, showing Narisa her bruises as much as she could without exposing herself to the other woman, "Most of those... weren't unwanted" she sobbed again, feeling dirty again, she didn't just ache from the bruises either, there was another reason she wanted to sit and not stand or walk but she wasn't about to talk to Narisa.... to ANYONE about THAT pain.
Suunath flopped against Calanoth. "Tyeth's will not think bad of her, he is a good person or he would not be Tyeth's" she said flatly, she didn't mean that Calanoth's wasn't a good person but he HAD upset Kindra somehow, even if she didn't understand exactly why "I did NOT choose wrong" she said, her 'voice' low and offended. "Tyeth's was the choice of MINE ... Tyeth was not good enough this time, i chose Calanoth, i did not choose wrong" her tone a little less harsh, she was upset now as she drew off Kindra, she knew she hadn't chosen wrong but she also liked Cepheith and didn't want to be angry with her.
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Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2012 4:44 pm
It was hard seeing Kindra like this, not knowing what to do for her. She... didn't understand the feelings Kindra was going through completely, not having anyone she cared for like her friend did N'mol. But she could imagine it hurt. A lot. She rubbed at Kindra's shoulders, moving closer to her on the bed and trying to find what to say. "Even after their mating, I don't think it was all- " Her mouth snapped shut, looking at the marks shown to her. "Shards... " Narisa breathed, gently letting her fingers brush along Kindra's arm.
The Goldrider just wrapped her arms around her fellow Goldrider, not even trying to find words to say. Was it... wrong for her to have... enjoyed what came of Suunath's Flight? To have... enjoyed Z'fer's company? Narisa honestly couldn't fathom this answer. "I'm... sorry." She whispered, feeling horrible for her inability at finding a way to comfort her. "Do you... want me to get you anything?"
The older Gold's tail thrashed, eyes sparking. She was still confused by all the different emotions she picked up from Hers and Suunath. Having the smaller Gold get offended and snap at her had Cepheith growling, a low rumble of a sound. A warning. I did not imply you chose wrong. Cepheith said neutrally, feeling annoyed that Her's was getting upset now too. You are doubting yourself. Do not do so. For you have no reason to. Snorting, she looked away from the other two dragons, eyes slowly mellowing to a deep green. Perhaps when Ours are not so upset, we can get a better understanding of why they feel so now? She said after a moment, voice softer and lacking her anger.
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Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2012 4:56 pm
Kindra sighed, she felt so .. wrong to have enjoyed being with Z'fer when she'd only wanted N'mol. She knew of course that Tyeth might not catch Suunath but honestly she'd never dreamed he wouldn't, so close were he and Suunath. She tried to control the sobs, to calm down but her stomach was all in knots and she rubbed art the bruises on her wrists after she'd shown Narisa, making them hurt, almost punishing herself. She knew she'd done wrong to throw Z'fer out the way she had too but she couldn't help feeling the way she had.
When Narisa hugged her Kindra just went with it, after a little while her crying was slowing down and a numb sort of feeling was creeping over her, as if she was trying to shut everything out. "I...i think i need a bath" she mumbled, staring at the wall of the hut. Perhaps a bath would make her feel a little better, she didn't know and she was certainly afraid N'mol would turn up at any minute.
Suunath bristled but ... Cepheith meant no harm and perhaps Suunath was slightly irrational because of Kindra and the fact Kindra kept rubbing her bruised wrists making them hurt. Suunath didn't really understand WHY Hers was hurting and was only vaguely aware of the pain and it irritated her a little, especially when she had been feeling so good before Kindra had woken up. "Yes... when Ours are calm perhaps they will tell us" she agreed, settling down to cuddle comfortably against Calanoth.
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Posted: Sun Nov 11, 2012 7:13 pm
A part of her was glad she had not found anyone of interest yet. Which made her stomach hurt and Narisa feel even worse. And yet... another part of her was afraid to find someone. Not if... this was what she'd have to face! Shaffit, what she wouldn't give to take away all the shameful and hurtful feelings Kindra was feeling. She was a strong woman. A strong Goldrider. And someone Narisa could see eventually bringing Benden back to it's former glory.
Narisa just quietly sat with Kindra until she stopped crying, gently rubbing her shoulders. "Why don't... you go take one. Cepheith and I aren't going anywhere. You don't have to worry about any... unwanted visitors." Not that she thought Z'fer would return. But... better to be safe, right?
"I'll get some klah made up. Unless you'd prefer tea?" Or wine for that matter.
Tail swishing, Cepheith rose to her feet again, moving her bulk to the other side of the hut's entrance. Settling there, the larger Gold curled up, resting her head on her crossed forelegs. The tip of her tail continued to flick, but she was calm now, though still confused. Agreed. For now, we'll just have to wait. She said quietly, clearly trying not to crowd the other two dragons but not leaving Hers.
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Posted: Tue Nov 13, 2012 11:37 am
Kindra didn't feel very strong at the moment, no matter what Narisa thought of her. She was shattered, her heart hurt. She wondered if she could EVER get used to the flippancy of the Weyrs when it came to relationships. She appreciated Narisa being there for her she really did but now she'd stopped crying the numb feeling crept further.
Sighing she let her legs dangle over the end of the bed again "Thank you Narisa, even Suunath is mad at me" she said in a hoarse voice, crying having scraped her throat raw. "she's not talking to me right now" she felt the feelings of annoyance and temper from her Gold and she shuddered again "You wouldn't be so smug if that first Bronze had been the one to Fly you" she snapped to Suunath, remembering the tricky male, remembered clawing his Rider's face as Suunath raked the Bronze.
She stood, shaking her head as if to rid them of the memories of the flight but even with the anger at Z'fer, post flight emotions rippled and she suddenly felt rather sick with herself. "N...Narisa i think.." she sighed and closed her eyes "I think Wine would be better.... do you have any Benden?" she asked, hopeful. She really did prefer Benden wine, to her, it was just better, she didn't know why.
"I'll go take a bath" she said lamely as she moved away from Narisa, it was fairly obvious that's where she was going but Kindra felt the need to break the silence. She made sure the water was hot, almost scalding, before she got in and began scrubbing, it became almost an obsession and she ignored pretty much anything else, was oblivious to Narisa now as she scrubbed her skin raw. Despite the scrubbing she still felt dirty so she scrubbed some more, until someone snapped her out of it.
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