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Hi guys. I'm not really sure how to type this, so I think I'll just say it straight up.

I dropped out of high school shortly after turning eighteen, there were a lot of things going on in my life at the time and I ended up falling into a deep depression to the point where I just couldn't do it anymore. It was something that loomed over my head for a very long time, I've always felt like I'm not good enough, not smart enough because I didn't graduate from high school.

Over the past two years, I've started taking steps to get my GED. I've taken every single test except my math test, and have done very well on all of them, passing all of them with high honors. ...That was two years ago. For nearly two years I have been literally terrified of taking this last test. I don't know exactly what it is, but even just the thought of taking it leaves me petrified, even studying for it is so difficult for me. Not because I have a hard time with the work, I pick up on the stuff I need to study pretty fast, but getting it to stick in my head is really hard for me. It seems like whenever I try to study, my head starts to get fuzzy and I can't concentrate and anything I learn goes right out my head as soon as I close the book.

Honestly I think a part of it is I've put a lot of pressure on myself, technically because my other scores were so high I only need to get the very minimum score to pass. But I keep telling myself I need to do really well on it, it's like I feel like I need to get high honors on this test too, or I won't be able to prove to myself that I'm good enough. I mean I know that's not true, that no matter how I do on this test I'll still be good enough in God's eyes, but somehow I just can't get myself to believe that.

If you guys could, could you please pray that I'll find the courage to take this test, and that I'll be able to study without all the difficulties I've been having with it?

Thank you! I have to finish it by the end of November or else all of my old test scores are going to be erased and I'll have to do them all all over again. >< I really don't want that to happen so I plan to take the test by the end of July, that way if I do fail the first time I have plenty of time to re-take it. I just have to get myself to start studying again, and find a way to get the things I study to stay in my head.

Thank you! :3

I took my GED test and passed it a few months ago.
Math was the hardest for me.
I watched a lot of youtube videos on math and they helped me.
Also, study the math section in GED books. That's what I did.
I prayed for courage for you. I know you will pass.

This is encouraging to see in my life right now. I have a friend that is 18, thinking about quitting, thinks that everybody hates her, no one loves her, she does have family loving and trusting issues. She has a boyfriend that is at least ummm...10 if not more years older then her and she wants to go live with him and be the mother of her children. I know this is way past what you were going though, but the depression and at the lowest point sounds super close. How could someone encourage you though that rough time? Is there a way I could incorage her to stay and not move with him? is there a way I could help her knowing that she is deep in depression?