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A little background history first...

At the age of 13 or so when I was in 6th grade I came out to my mother as "bisexual" because 1) I was currently in love with my best friend (who was female) and 2) I was not yet aware of the way my heart and body worked towards other genders.
She took it horribly. She told me I was an unnatural being and that she hoped God would forgive me and not let me fall into hell.
As the situation progressed I was soon betrayed by the girl whom I fell for and never really spoke of my sexuality again and from that point on I only let her know about boyfriends.
Long story short all my relationships with boys have gone terribly as they all tried to rape me.
And so I sought the comfort of another female without my mother knowing and that also ended in ruin as she cheated on me and obtained a STD in the process.

Within the past few years I found myself falling for a homosexual man who could never have hoped to return my feelings because of my female body. I asked a few of my LGBT friends if they could explain this to me and then I was introduced to the term "Pansexual" which I have now adopted because I think it fits with the way I am very well.

And now I am 20 years old, still living at home because of community college and trying very hard to succeed in my studies.
As I have grown older and perhaps more attractive many girls out in public openly flirt with me which I don't mind, it's kind of nice.
However my mother is still extremely closed minded about this and every time a girl flirts with me she proceeds to obtain a beyond disgusted look on her face and death glare at both me and the girl.

I guess my point in posting this is I'm wondering if I should try re-coming out to her but as "Pansexual" which I take to mean "gender blind" meaning I can become attracted to and love anyone of any gender identity and such. I know that if I were to come out again it would again not go well... but is it worth a try? I just don't know what to do.

If you made it this far -gives you some homemade hot chocolate and a cookie-

-pets your hair and gives you another cookie- it's okay. just how life goes, I guess. && my dad honestly don't give a rat's a**, just as long as I'm happy and my mom's side of the family is really open minded about that kind of thing. It's really just my mom..

Yeah I think exactly like you! I mean it's just ridiculous... I don't think people should be so judgmental about things they don't understand but they are...
&& I'm glad they at least accepted it inside the family... I can imagine how hard it is to be in a family where no one approves or accepts how you are as a person..

Anyways! thank you for your insight. I'm unsure when to tell her... I'm almost tempted to wait until I move out..

The right time eh?
So when she's like 80 and senile... xD Haha... and will be too haggard to get up and chase me.