To start off so no one gets confused- I identify as pansexual I guess? Not sure really but we'll go with that.
Secondly- I would put this under relationship problems but it's less of a relationship problem and more of a life issue now because of what the person said to me.
- - so I'll just start now.
Back over the summer I developed feelings for a friend of my sister- he was 18, a two years younger than me and returned my feelings as much as he could I guess.
We got along really well and hanging out with him was something I would really look forward to.
Then he left for college- on the other side of my state and we didn't talk as much and of course he started losing interest in me- which was expected.
It hurt though. I didn't realize it sooner but he wasn't a "one person, person".
Right before Christmas I asked to hang out and it was only like the second time I brought it up in a time span of 3 months maybe? and he exploded on me. Told me I was clingy and needed to find someone else- but the thing that got me is his words "I love you, but you aren't that important to me".
I won't lie- I was crushed... after all I shared with him about my past and after he had accepted my flaws he does this? I guess I was angry at myself for being surprised.. I guess I should have known it wouldn't have worked for whatever reason.
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He tried to hang out with me a few times after he told me to scram- which I don't understand. He's an idiot, my family says, and I guess he might as well be.
He's back at college now and we rarely talk.
His words just keep echoing in my head though and it depresses me a little, I guess?
I don't know how to get over it.
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So if you got this far- congratulations. -gives you some truffles (the chocolate not the mushroom).
I guess this was a rant mostly but if someone could maybe help me understand what in all the f--k happened? Haha because I'm still not sure.
Secondly- I would put this under relationship problems but it's less of a relationship problem and more of a life issue now because of what the person said to me.
- - so I'll just start now.
Back over the summer I developed feelings for a friend of my sister- he was 18, a two years younger than me and returned my feelings as much as he could I guess.
We got along really well and hanging out with him was something I would really look forward to.
Then he left for college- on the other side of my state and we didn't talk as much and of course he started losing interest in me- which was expected.
It hurt though. I didn't realize it sooner but he wasn't a "one person, person".
Right before Christmas I asked to hang out and it was only like the second time I brought it up in a time span of 3 months maybe? and he exploded on me. Told me I was clingy and needed to find someone else- but the thing that got me is his words "I love you, but you aren't that important to me".
I won't lie- I was crushed... after all I shared with him about my past and after he had accepted my flaws he does this? I guess I was angry at myself for being surprised.. I guess I should have known it wouldn't have worked for whatever reason.
- -
He tried to hang out with me a few times after he told me to scram- which I don't understand. He's an idiot, my family says, and I guess he might as well be.
He's back at college now and we rarely talk.
His words just keep echoing in my head though and it depresses me a little, I guess?
I don't know how to get over it.
- -
So if you got this far- congratulations. -gives you some truffles (the chocolate not the mushroom).
I guess this was a rant mostly but if someone could maybe help me understand what in all the f--k happened? Haha because I'm still not sure.
