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Well... Basically, I've been in love with this girl since I first laid eyes on her, when we were about 14. She's 18 now and I'm 18 in August.
She's so gorgeous and we became bestfriends pretty quick back then. We wrote letters to eachother whenever we would be absent from school and we'd tell eachother everything and comfort eachother when we were sad etc.
Once, in class, she wrote a note to me (That was our thing) and we were talking about who we liked and I think I said I'd tell her if she told me, so she wrote it on a note and it said "I like you, more than a friend... But shh. xx"
And I'll always remember how I felt when I read those words. Because I had been crushing on her for months at this point, and I had always been down about liking her because I always assumed she was straight, y'know?

Anyways, we didn't really talk about that afterwards. But it's always stuck in my mind.

And then she left school because she moved away. And we kinda lost contact after that, which upset me so much.

Long story short, we kept regaining our friendship but then eventually losing it again. This happened about 3 or 4 times. Each time was more painful than the last.

Now, this one time she was having family problems so I skipped college the once (this was a year ago now) and went to see her, she was staying at her big sister's then, and spent the whole day with her and stuff. And I ended up sleeping over.
I'll never forget that night, because it was the first night I actually believed she could love me like I loved her.
It was quite late, maybe half 11, 12 'o clock at night and we decided to go to bed. She was sleeping in her niece's bedroom at the time, which was a single bed. So, we lay across the bed and listened to music in her headphones. And we just... Sort of lay there for an hour or so, enjoying being near eachother and listening to the music. She had her head on my chest at this point and was stroking the back of my hand with her thumb. I could have easily made a move on her, but in all honesty, I was scared to. But that didn't matter, because I was just happy being near her. In the end we agreed to go to sleep and we top and tailed (she slept at the top of the bed and I slept at the bottom).

Anyway, here's my issue right now.
We've recently started being friends again after a year apart.
And... She sort of gives me mixed signals about how she feels about me. She has a boyfriend and all. But she always says how important I am to her and how much I mean to her etc. And she always says she loves me.
So it's really confusing.
She does have bipolar though... So.
I asked her about how she feels a year ago, and she said she was really confused and didn't know.
So what should I do? :/ I really like her and I thiiink she likes me too... But I don't know.

Any help would be appreciated. <3

Just be there for her, be yourself and no matter what happens, if she does turn out to be strait then be happy for her. I've had something quite similar happen to me, and even though it did hurt because I still loved her, I wanted what made her happy, and now we're still friends, close friends, and I'm over her. I hope yours works out. But never forget to be yourself.

Thankyou, Ma'am. emotion_kirakira