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I've never really paid much attention to Gender, I never thought about why, why not, It just didn't accrue to me. My first female crush was in third grade, My first girlfriend was in kindergarden. I thought it was the most normal thing, I paid zero mind to it, until Middle school. I started realizing (hormones) that apparently My thought process wasn't the norm. Not judging, i just really didn't know. I thought maybe I don't like girls? I didn't know what to think. In eightth grade I got a crush on this cute asian boy, but there was also this one girl who i found myself just eying. We had a transgender girl, who i thought was smoking Hot. i didn't tell anyone, because I was still confused as to why i lacked care for gender, race (I actually have people reminding me of this its sad). i had what I seemed to like to look at visually, and the thought "I'd totally date them" came across so often, for random people and genders.
Finally in highschool I decided I'd just play it my way. i was Bi and totally cool with it. (I hadn't known about Pansexuality) It's Tenth grade, and this really ute girl swoons me, wants to date. I've known her since ninth grade, and had a crush on her for sure. We went out for a short time. I decide to tell my parents.
Now generally my parents are lay back, cool the smoke (yeah that stuff), they always seemed open-minded. First i told my step-dad, didn't bat an eye, he could care less. I tell my brother, He knew already. I tell my mom....
I got grounded, and yelled at, she literally thought I was joking. It had hurt me, I've been through a lot of abuse in my life, and i'm kind of off in the head, My mom has always said I'm perfect, but suddenly gets mad when I admit I like girls, and have a really hot girlfriend. It took her a few weeks to really realize, That I wasn't kidding. Then it was a phase. It'll go away. >.>
We got into a huge fight soon after my 18th birthday, when I told my parents I felt I may be trans, and was thinking of a name change. It's really hard for me to explain it, but Everyday I look in the mirror I feel I would fit better for myself as a boy. I also enjoy being a girl. I still get majorly frustrated about it. I wish there was a bodily middle, like being all smooth, like completely genderless

She finally accepts me, she likes to say she was joking about being mad, since she thought I was playing with her, but I know better. Things are hella better, now that my mom has realized many things.