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 Posted: Sun Mar 26, 2006 8:02 am
well I thought I'd include my own blog...I apologise for all the depressing posts I might include in here, it's all I seem to write about..when I'm happy I never write about it sweatdrop maybe I should start...
so anyhow...first post...
lately I've noticed how much I'm changing...I used to let people walk all over me...tolerate hurt and pain..but now...if something is going the way I want it to, I'll ******** say so...I don't care anymore..it's good in a way...but...bad in others...
for example..when something hurts me...instead of being hurt about it, I get really angry..start slamming doors etc and wanting to shout and swear and scream...and it's because anger makes you feel stronger than hurt, instead of being weak...but I don't even know I'm doing it until I get really angry, and I don't know how to make it go away once it's there....I get really angry at my friends and loved ones, and I say things I regret later..mostly I keep it all in and don't say what I'm thinking...cause I don't wanna hurt anyone, and afterwards I feel really bad and guilty for thinking like I did...
I just turn hurt into anger and I don't like it...I don't like how I'm becoming, and I don't know what to do or who to ask for help...
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Posted: Wed Mar 29, 2006 7:09 am
well I got my grade for the pervious project I did in Art...I based it on Jackson Pollock..it was so much fun, and the bes piece I've done yet..and I got an A!! I can't believe it..it's damn near impossible to get an A...never thought I would see the day I got an A in A-Level Art! xd
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Posted: Tue Apr 04, 2006 7:20 pm
Congrads on the A!!
I am a push-over and let people walk on me redface
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Posted: Fri Apr 07, 2006 9:37 am
thankyou for the comment.
and *hugs* you shouldn't. I used to be like that for about ten years of my life, and it was horrible. the confidence will come eventually 3nodding
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Posted: Wed Apr 12, 2006 8:37 am
Been out shopping today, for clothes, really need some new jeans...I tried on about 6 different pirs in different shops and not a single one of them fit...I can never buy clothes to fit...I never have...it's so annoying...
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Posted: Thu Apr 20, 2006 10:51 am
it's coming to the end of my easter break..tomorrow I have to go in college to do some extra photography work...as if I haven't been doing enough work as it is...I haven't had a break at all...oh well...only 6 weeks of college left...and then exams! argh!! sweatdrop
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