Welcome to Gaia! ::

You turn away from me
No one wants to deal
With a girl that just wants to feel
Something real
Whether it's knife-steel
My skin as it's peeled
My skull crushed under a wheel...
You know, something surreal.
You tell me to talk
But you never listen
To my silent SCREAMS
that are constant reminders
That I am nothing.
Just something
To be used
And abused...
I'm so confused.
When will I wake
When will all this give-and-take
Stop being so fake?
There is no give; only take
There is no real; only fake
There is no life
There is no death
Just the viscious cycle
Of pain.
Where is my rain?
It left me, just like you
Who I can finally see through
To who you really are.
I want to go far
To where I am welcome and loved
But you won't let me rise above
and find my peace...
Get my release...
From Hell.
I've finally given up,
I realize I'm ******** you...
Can't see me.
The person you claim to love
But have real indifference towards
You yank me back and forth
To show your control
But you should arleady know
That I'd do anything
To make you happy
I'll do everything
So I'll never see you cry
But it's useless...
Just like me.
It's hopeless
I'll never be free
From this prison
You set me in
Though I have risen
So far
You weigh me down again
With my mistakes
I can't wait for the end
When I'll accept my fate
For this life I created
Is just too jaded
And far too faded
For me to care.

Thank you. ^^