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Ive been gone for a few days.
Ive been having a very "Gone With the Wind" week.
What with the breaking of my heart by the man I think I love, and then realizing that the man I truely love is the man I should have been with in the first place.
Concidering that both of these men switch positions all the time, I shouldnt be surprised.
Im usualy in love with one of them, often both of them at the same time.
Sorry that Im such a drama queen, making a post, and then realizing that it is fast turning into some form of live journal entry.

Post topics:
1. Give me sympathy
2. Have you ever had a 'Gone With the Wind' / 'Soap Opera' kind of week?
PS. I come back online to find that the guild that I practicaly run, has banned me for some random reason that has not even been shared with the banee (being me)

Heh. I'll give you to my little sister. I've tried selling her, but nobody's buying. Then again, I've tried many times over the years to give her away, even to the relatives who've expressed an interest.

Auntie to Little Sister: "Oh, you're so cute, I wish I could take you home with me!"
Me: "PLEASE! YES! TAKE HER!"
Auntie: "What? No, I can't take her, you'll miss her too much!"
Me: "Trust me, we won't miss her at all! Take her!"

gonk They never did.

*cough*

Back on subject a bit. I've had soap opera weeks, but usually the drama is just stuff I'm observing from the sidelines. I try to stay out of it myself, though lately I've started to get dragged into it. Kicking and screaming, fingernails peeling up curls of shavings from the wooden floor. sweatdrop

Dont get me started. I don't know why I'm with my boyfriend sometimes. I'm just so in love with im. Even though he's absolute scum sometimes. But he knows how to sweettalk me just so. And he always feels such genuine remorse. He just keeps ******** up.

*grinds teeth*

Sometimes I just want to cry for myself. Sometimes I'm such a fool. But like I told him on the phone today, "You're in trouble when I get home. No, I won't tell you while you're at work or you'll be grouchy all day. Yeah, yeah. I love you. Even though I hate you. I love you. Bye."

*shakes head*

Oh trust me. I've been there where you feel like your world is spinning out of control and you can't seem to make it stop, but you have no choice but to watch it play out before you like a cheesy soap opera. If you were to go to my journal and look back in January to March, then WELCOME TO MY WORLD!

Trust me, I love Twiggaterp very very much, but there are days I just want a little bit more. And then I have one of my best friend who tells me how much he loves me and how angry he gets when Twiggz is semi-neglecting me and whatever, but I'm half-tempted to just toss my hands in the air and keep both of them very very far from me.

Hell, I haven't heard for Twiggz since Sunday. I see him on AIM and sometimes on Gaia, but we don't exchange words at all.

Okay, and now I feel like I'm going cry.

I'm sorry doll. Wish I could tell you that life will eventually become normal, but everyone's lives are Soap Operas, except those who are work-aholics.

*my boyfriend's exgirlfriend was hitting on me today, right in front of him.
*i was tempted to dump boyfriend early this morning b/c of s**t i found on the net
*boyfriend came home, i confronted him, ten minutes later... *pfft* hunfhunf and all that jazz .__.;;
*went with boyfriend on one of his last probation meetings and met his probation officer for the first time. nice guy. offered to stand as a witness to the fact that chris said he was planning to marry me next spring (y'know, in case chris backed down lol)
*boyfriend said stuff on the way to prob. office like how when we're married he's going to spend like all his time with me except when at work, because he loves spending time with me, and like how he's a better person when i'm around but he's not sure why, and i offered up the suggestion that that could be because, unlike himself, i have like, expectations, and standards, and stuff. and he tries to live up to them, he just remembers better when i'm in range.

My life is so soapoperaish. I've actually said to myself during some dramatic episodes, "holy crap, i swear, this sounds like it's from some cheezy romance novel or something"
i'm such a bad person XD;; *flails* it's just I'm more emotionally detached than the people i'm surrounded with, i guess. i mostly think now, feel later.

I'll give you sympathy.

Mainly because I've never seen a soap opera or 'Gone With The Wind', so I can't comment on discussion number two.

*sympathizes*