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"Feb. 11th
1:11 am
2006

Time

Oddly enough, I am able to speak on my thoughts about time than write them down. I myself am so confused about what I think of time, I do not think that this entry will be put together all that well, and it would be a lot easier if I had made a better cup of tea (!). However the cruelties of time itself will most likely alter or cause me to forget what I think about time in the first place, so I might aswell do my best to put it down on paper.

Time I think does not really exist. Granted time is a fabric of the universe us humans cling to with an unbearable strength, However I still think time is an illusion, almost a cruelty, no, it is a cruelty. Time is the destruction of the impassible, why we forget things, death, time causes and is almost always the imminent downfallof nearly everything. I will ramble a bit about mankind aswell, so be expecting it. All of the aspects of our lives we put such importance and emphasis upon we will forget in maybe five years. On top of it, every single human has such a detailed and seemingly important life though that life's affect may span about 50 square miles or daily use or influence. So such evident self importance placed individually for each person in a tiny amount of area to be forgotten if not by that person but by everyone else. . What is the point?! What really is the point of everything and anything if we are to forget it, die, every aspect of out life disintegrate in maybe 200 years. Your own family in maybe three or four generations down know nothing of you, why does it all happen. . .Life, the all important thing and our personality, all of this just a grain of sand that will disappear in a blink of an eye. I do not understand any of this. None of it in harsh reality has a purpouse. No one knows why time, life, and the all that is is. And it almost seems as if no one cares. To forsake time and live things as they come would be a form of beautiful ignorance. Yet not pondering or question it would be to not consider existance or anything. I know this makes no sense but I am trying to make sense out of life, death, and worse yet the time that defines both of these. In trying to understand what is so inunderstandable is painful. I suppose the obviousness of death and time are so painful that I am tring to find single truthes that are less pain. Even the afterlife (if there is one) must pay adherance to time. If death is an eternal moment than it defies everything. If heaven follows the law of time than eternal life means nothing. Eternal life is just as pointless as life if everymoment we value is eventually lost only to be lost, forgotten and forsaken, what really is the point? I yearn to know the impossible. Though, if not knowing time and what is is impossible, than truly knowing anything is impossible. Anything that has a beginning or an end is a lie, Time is a horrid Illusion by which everything bows to, and yet this cruel lie seems to be the only truth in anything. HOW?!"

Have fun wrapping your mind around that!

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Thank you!
This I was not expecting at all!
I guess I attempt to post when ever I think of something that would be correct here. . I dunno?