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this was my awakening.

I had this dream when I was around 7 years old. I really can't remember if it was a dream or a vision. I was living in a wood cottage somewhere in the forest with a wife and 2 children. She was the most beatiful woman I have ever seen. I think elizabeth was her name or the name that I gave her. I don't remember names, just what I saw in this.

We had loaded a wagon to travel into town to sell some random things like clothing that she had made and animal skins from that which I killed. All of us we traveling along a dirt road through the forest. The sun was just setting; I saw a man along the road ahead with a wagon. When we came up to the man whom had a broken wheel on his wagon, I offered to help. We were waylaid and this was the trap. I was knocked unconscious but before I blacked out I could hear the screams of my family.

I guess I woke up a few hours shortly after the attack. With a headache and a dark vengence flowing through my veins I pursued them as best as I could without my horse and wagon. It took me a few days before I found a town where they had passed through. It wouldn't have been so hard if people weren't so afraid of what I was. This pleasent dream so quickly became a nightmare which only became worse. I found my children. I found them dead. They had been hung inside a barn on the outskirts of a town. When I touched them I saw the last moments of their death. My daughter who was only around the age of 6 had been raped, beaten with some parts of her flesh burned. My son, around the age of 8 had been forced to watch and when he didn't he was beaten and burned like his sister. After they were done with them, they killed my children by hanging them. I don't know if anyone could understand how it felt. I eventually found my attackers with my wife after days of traveling with as little rest and food as needed. I attacked them, without any warning. My mind had been clouded by rage and hatred. I felt no pain from any blade or arrow. I kill the three of them.

I tended to my wife whom lay dying in my arms. They had broken her legs so that she couldn't run away. She had been raped so badly that there was only blood left, what little blood was left in her. She asked me if the children were ok. I lied to her and said that they were fine. She gave me her last breath, if anyone knows what I mean. I did then what anyone would have done for the women that they loved more then there own life. I carried her body to a stone altar that over-looked the sea. I wasn't a normal being. I used a special magic to raise her soul from the dead. I sacrificed my life for her so that she may live but I learn that she drown herself in the lake near our house.

This dream was a gift to me as a right of passage by my ancestor, Johannes Alexander. I am the first in my bloodline to be like him. if you think how could this be possible since everyone died. He had taken someone before his wife. It is complicated to explain here. I really don't talk about this to my family since I'm already the black sheep. Most think I'm crazy to believe this to be true but I don't care if they believe me or not. Those spirits became a part of my life. He taught me many things and He helped me through some bad times. So I write this for him and myself in hopes that I might find the one whom meant so much to us.

Mine took place over the period of several years and I cannot find any explanation for it other than that I am in actuality, a dragon.

Even to this day, I cannot explain why, but I never had any friends until I was 13 and that pretty much made my cynical personality and maybe it helped too. In an odd way, I remember having crushes on reptillian animals in cartoons and the like. In 3rd grade or so, we were studying a very small section on "Dinosaurs and Dragons" and such. The dinosaurs were obviously explained by science, but the dragons somehow intrigued me. Most if not all the stories were those knight stories where they slayed the dragon. The other girls seemed to dream about the knight, but sadness had overcome me, and the dragon in the illustration I found very attractive. Nothing much happened for a few years, but I still felt sadness everytime I heard about a dragon slaying in a book, it totally irked me, I seriously was unable to stand it.

At 13, I read a series of books starting of by "Dealing with Dragons". A book that portrayed dragons in a good light, and yet instead of being treated as domesticated animals -coughwingedandscaledhorseswhichissocommonanditannoysmecough- they were intelligent and probably even put in a better light than humans themselves! The series helped me awaken a lot, and I wonder if the author is Kin herself. (I don't believe that to be Kin you have to have 1 past life as another creature, since I've lived many different ones, but you have to have the soul of a creature but be in another creature, but that's another story) I somehow awakened to one of my past lives. I still don't remember the details too clearly, and I don't know if its tragic or not, the only thing I can make out is that I was human in that life, but I had been in a love affair with a dragon. Unfortunately, that's all I really know about it. However, I still hadn't entirely figured it out and I found myself thinking "I am a dragon", I had an odd obsession for the idea and starting researching. I then came to a website explaining the draconic otherkin culture and it kind of cleared to me. I do have flashbacks once in a while, but I rarely am able to make something out of it.

An interesting fact about me though, is that I have an odd eye color that no one in my family has. Its an odd yellow-amber with green around the pupil, the odd thing is that it seems to often appear in carnivorous creatures like large cats, reptiles and the like. Talking about that, I was born with my eyes open and I didn't cry at all until I got my shots.

Mine was uneventful. I knew all my life, same with my sexuality. It just took until I got older to have a term (otherkin) to use to define myself I suppose.

awakining....

i had no idea what it was at the time. i was 10 and my family had recintly moved to a house with a little bit of woods(i guess you could call it that...veryy small nd skinny) i was young(in body) and i packed a lunch early one morning and set out to explore my "teratory" i dont know why but i kept calling it that, and as soon as i stepped into the trees i felt like there should be more beings...my...my pack, the name came to me suddenly, it was odd because i never thought as people that way before. indeed, my favorit animals at that time were cats and cats were a "pride" well i walked further into the woods and suddenly i couldnt see my house any more. i ran around looking for the egde of the woods, not out of fear of being lost, but because my mom would kill me if i got lost....so anyways i tripped and fell on my hands and knees. then i felt another being. i looked up and saw an enormous boy. he was 5 feet tall and had blond hair and blue eyes. he said that his name was kilopie, and that he was a wolf. i asked him how old he was and he said 10. for some reason, i knew him. he told me that he was my twin brother. and it felt natural. (sorry its long)
well, i looked down at my hands(i was still on my hands and knees) and i had paws, one red one cream. i looked tward the boy and he was a pure white wolf. he howled once and many more wolves came running out of the woods. they turned tward him and they ran on and he went with them.

i woke up that morning and relized that the tail and ears and such that i had felt since i was tiney were real... never told anyone about this astrial experiance, but i have known ever since who i was, it is funny, like Reyairia i too have an abnormal eye color, ice blue both my parents have brown eyes, and their parents...and so on, this puzzled me until that dream, because i also have blond hair wile they had dark brown/black hair. i know that it should be impossible in genetics, but its true....but they are the same color as that boys...he is my spirit guide

i have read dealing with dragons too, in fact i have the boxed adition its awsome and yea the dragons rock, and i love the old one that burn cimerones hankeys wink

Yeah, I also had the whole "ever since I was little..." thing. I LOVED the movie Dragonheart. Has anyone here seen it, and if not I suggest you watch it. Tis good. But my freshman year, I met my best friend and he's dragonkin like myself. We dated my sophomore year and a month or so after we broke up, I went through the whole painful Awakening process. At first I wasn't sure if I really was dragonkin, but last year a guy I know walked in and asked who was dragonkin, which was FREAKY, thus removing all doubts. 3nodding

Besides feeling like I was.. somehow different my entire childhood, My my awakening was beautiful... I was on the astral plane, running through woods, wondering why my point of vision was much lower to the ground than I was used to. I came upon a clearing and slowed, in the center of the clearing was a pond, which I walked up to, being thirsty from my run. When i looked over the edge, I saw my reflection, and in my head, almost like an echo, it was like I could hear "This is what you are" and it just felt so.... right to see myself as I did..

I own Dragonheart. It's a wonderful movie. heart
And I'm going to recommend the Dragonriders of Pern (by Anne McCaffrey), as that too shows Dragons in a good light.

My awakening was recent and uneventful. I never considered myself weird as a child nor did I find myself isolated. It was only when I started researching the Occult first, which slowly helped me find the Otherkin community. Throughout that researching of Otherkin I constantly found myself thinking, "Hey, this explains a lot about me..." And here I am.

And I can sympathize with you, Choirgirl. In multiple ways. biggrin

I've felt different for a LONG time, but never had anything to go on or a word to describe myself. It's been confusing, but relatively uneventful. I wish i could remember more of what I used to be. Only have 2.5 memories right now, and only one is relevant. I believe I am still in the process of awakening.