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Okay first of all i apologise if you think i'm just being an attention seeker and all

heres my situation

to keep this short i've just been dumped for the seconed time by the girl of my dreams who i loved dearly and was even considering proposing to but then today i find out that as from yesterday she's been going out with my so called best friend who knew how i felt about this girl and as a result i've been crying all night and the thing that annoys me more is that this girl diddn't tell me the news but i heard it from this best friend and that was over msn ((for slightly fuller version just read my journal))

anyway to cut to the chase i currently feel like i don't have a purpose to live for anymore as every girl i get near just seems to end up dumping me so i'm now actually for the first time considering suicide as the only thing i can think of to have as a reason to live is to see that there relationship fails but i don't really want to live like that

please give me a new purpose for my life before i do somthing drastic

thankyou

If you want a reason to live then consider the following, it has always helped any friend of mine whenever they felt suicidal and they are all leading happy lives now:

Even though people act cruely to you and hurt you in the most painful ways possible, even if you're heart and spirit is torn to pieces and you feel like you can't go on, remember that there is always a reason for this. And don't use God as an excuse becaus then you're taking the easy way out. If you've been hurt, it's cause the other person in insecure about themself and needs to feel better by hurting the one's that care for them or simply just someone else. It's just exchanging the pain to another in order to obtain self-satisfaction which is the lowest and sleaziest way imaginable. There's only one true way to make yourself better. Tonight when you're alone in your room, pull out a paper and write "I am worth more to myself than the whole world is to me." everytime you think something negative. If you hit 100 before you go to sleep (start about 3 hours before this) then take out another piece and write the names of those who've hurt you in any way and what they did to you in big letters wtih a marker/sharpie. Take this paper and tear out their names into separate pieces of paper and pile them up. Pick one up at a time and think about 1 way you could take revenge on them and then what they'd do after that and if this makes you any better than them. If all else fails then write 30 things which make you a great person and a great friend to others. heart

Please don't commite suicide, there are so many people whose lives will be greatly influenced by your death. We all love you and would be really sad if you did what you want to do.

good for you, dear. *hugglies*

and jinx, that's amazing. May I use that in the future for my friends when they're down? One of my friends was very drunk and very sad last night, because he's sick of pretty gay men not even giving him a chance, he's sick of being alone, and his mind won't shut off a lot of the time to let him sleep. It's also been a while since he's been able to go to a therapy session because of scheduling conflicts, and this might help him in the meantime.