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I clean out my room, because I'm told.
I move all my stuff, because I ma told.
I throw away things I love, because I am told.
I try to believe ifs for the best, becuase I am told.
I believe I'm the problem, because I am told.
I take my meds, because I am told.
I never show when I'm mad, because I am told.
I hide who I am, but like always the emotions don't hold.

Once again I'm alone.
Once again they say their helping.
Once again I a pained.
Once again they say they fixed me.
Once again they wait to send me back.

I did as told,
I tryed to be perfect,
I did as told,
didnt brake a single rule.
I did as told, so I would never go back.

Thats the problem right there,
It likes to happen ever4y time.
Thats the problem right there,
They are keeping me down.

Here what I need,
I believe I can truely say.
I need a life away from you all,
A life done with your harmful way.

No I dont need a new room.
No I dont need new pills.
No I dont need to hear you.
No, trust me, I'm better my way.

So believe it to be harmful,
I believe it's truly harmless
Some believe it insain,
I believe they dont know for I feel I'm sain

so heres my ways,
to keep them out.
so heres they true ways,
to travil a new route.

I sit in the corner and begin to right things,
I breath in deep and soon cut off my air.
I wake up dizzy but very clear headed,
I now think through my problems and write them all down...

Then I do what I must to end my self daught,
I starve myself,
truly the way out.
I no longer feel the hunger that once I did hate.
I no longer feel the pressure that once kept me down.

I stop talking,
stop telling,
stop careing,
stop hurting myself.

with out comunication they cant controll me,
with out my fear and with out my heart,
all the things they say fall apart.
Why will they blame know?
Know that things still go wrong...
Who will they ******** over?
Know that I have excapd...

THEY NEVER LEAR EVERY THING THEY DID AND EVERYTHING THEY DO, KEPT ME IN DEPRESSION, PUT ME IN THEIR HELL, AND HELPED ME BECOME THE WAY I AM.. BUT MOST ALL ALL THEY JUST DONT SEE WHY THEY SHOULD HAVE LISTEN TO ME... NEVER DID THEY DO SO, AND NEVER NOW WILL THEY BE GIVEN THAT CHANCE...