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Eh, sleep isn't necessary.

(This is what I wrote.)


Well, I just got done writing probobly the best god damn blog I have ever written, and I just pressed back then go it all blank, so I'll have to start again.

Also, all that is said in here is not directed at any person inparticular, as it may seem I'm targeting you, I am not, just geting things off my chest is all.

*First, teachers need to talk to each other on homework assignments. Mainly because as we get older, the responsabilities we have get more and more time consuming. And when we get 3+ teachers giving out large scale homework assignments keeping us up to the wee hours of the ******** morning, things need to change. (Not the reason I'm up either.)
*Second, sutpid ******** labor laws. Why do I have to be ******** 18 to work in a labor yard, is it because you don't rust that I or my parents would act like adults if I got hurt? I bet it is, and you know what, stab yourself with a pen in your a** so it ******** hurts every time you sit down. Becuase of you, I have to STILL wait another month before I can get a job at a place I want, you ******** suck.
*Third, mistakes. At around 20:00 hours I have myself a Mt.Dew, usually by about 22:00 hours it would have run through my system and I would be able to go to bed. So I had a couple of other off brand sodas that I THOUGHT were caffeine free. But it turns out that they weren't and I've been up still, and it's now 03:03 in the ******** morning while I sit here typing out everything on my god damned mind.
*Fourth, habits. Habits are harder to break then ******** drug addictions, god damn these things. It's because of this I can't do something as simple as find out what religion is most viewed by people in a country. I have to go and find out its views and beliefs so I can understand it. I ******** do this for everything I get handed, and if you ask yourself and other people about the things I get myself sucked into to find out, it's a pretty disgusting habit.
*Fifth, One of my favorite passions. Fighting, it has to be one of my most heartful, hateful and hurtful (I bet I misspelled everyone of those words) passions. Een when it comes down to a simple argument it could turn out bad. I'd rather take a punch to the face then be told something hurtful, and I bet most people are like that too. I may have a heart of stone most of the time, I may be a more then apathetic(SP) person when it comes to people down on their luck. But it usually hurts just the same. This passion is a curse. Imagine getting a car for your birthday, and not being able to get the keys to even open the doors, and just having it sit there collecting dust. Or like having a best friend who lives on the other side of the country and whom you can only talk to once a month for 10 minutes, that is the curse of my passion. What's worse is when you try and avoid damage by trying to change the topic of an argument and the other person tries to keep it going. Asking why you're not answering, why you turned away. When you know and understand that it would only make things worse. Even when you try and get them to understand and they just won't accept it, you have to debate which would hurt less, walking away or just continue.
*Sixth, random thought. I forget many things, but not things that are truly important. Sorry I don't know your favorite color, or your birthday or what your favorite type of food is. But I will never forget when you will be waking up, or when you will be able to have a visitor or a promis I make you... usually... But I do my best to try and remember most things. I saddly remember my bullies from elem school. I meet them every day while at school. But only one of them has actually come up to me and said sorry for what they have done. But they are still a dumb ******** of our comformist society. He may not be bullying anymore, but he still isn't conscious of what he does, he still hurts as many people as he did then. The other may have forgotten what they have done, but I haven't.
*Seventh, forgiveness. I don't forget things, but I am willing to forgive, maybe even a second time. But I will never forget what it is you or I have done, and it tears me apart sometimes when I remember something that either of us have done.
*Eighth, help. I'm not one for coming to people for help, I can usually help myself, but there are times when I need help and just don't know who to come to. Mainly because of a couple reasons: 1. They might not have the answer I need; 2. Confidentiality. I know I have the second one, and I'll try my best to have the first one, but please, Don't be afraid to ask me for help at all. I will keep anything you say to be a secret even if you don't care if I tell God himself. (This may actually be the first time I capitilized his name in use before.)
*Ninth, secrecy. It's what I pride myself in, I can keep anything told to me a secret, if someone confides with me, no one will ever know what they told me. Someone could tell me they just got pregnant and all I would do is help them with the problem, if it is one. Boyfriend beating you up, I won't say a word, I'll try and help and even kick his/her a** if needed. But no one will ever hear it from me.

That seems to be all for right now, nothing else is coming to mind as I sit here and think, it took me over an hour to type all this, and even with the mistake it took a rather long time. Well, don't forget that I'm here to help, so if it is ever needed, don't fear in asking for advice or just a person to listen to your problems or relieve stress. You want a good fight ro a place to relax, I'm willing to give you both, farewell.

Highschool.

It's the exact opposite for me, the homework gets me. The tests I have no problem with.

I have to get some sleep, mainly because of my allergy problem. If I don't get alot of sleep, my allergies start up early, and will affect me till around noon, even if I take my medication. The only time it gets to be a problem is if I stay up till around one or two in the morning every day, because I wake up sometime between 5 and 6 in the morning normally. I can go a few days on that kind of schedule, then I need to go to bed at around eleven for a few nights to get myself straight again.

WOOT for sleep

Actually, it is.