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 Posted: Sun Dec 31, 2006 5:33 pm
Just your average, every day, run of the mill, abandond castle classroom. It's a bit curved around the edges with a big hole in the wall that some ancient designer called a 'window'. Makes for a heavy draft in the winter.
((Notice: This classroom was kinda sorta not really approved by Finker. That's because it's Bloody New Years, I'm stuck in the airport termonal with over an hour long delay on our flight, I'm leaching off the Airport Internet with a measly one bar signal after not being able to RP for two weeks, and I'm bloody bored!!!))
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Posted: Sun Dec 31, 2006 7:00 pm
It was a decent time after classes on a Monday, too early for dinner but still on time for Prefect rounds. Felix snuck into this seemingly harmless room with that thought in mind, also remembering the certain prefect he'd been thinking about for the past few days.
"There we are." Felix muttered to himself happily, closing the door behind him and putting on the wimpiest locking charm he could think of. Keeps the stupid people out and makes the smart one want to come in. He walked over to the hole-in-the-wall and layed down on the ledge, one leg in and one leg out of the castle. Reaching into his tight black jean's pocket, he pulled out a muggle i-pod that his mother enchanted and gave to him. It had come from her work actually, getting it off of a muggle teen that had been jinxed and 'wouldn't be needing it anymore'.
It was a fact that not many people cared to know, but could have found out easily if they'd bothered to ask. After all, it was rather exhausting to stay so chipper all the time, and every few days, or even just when he needed some time to collect his thoughts, Felix gave himself some time to just relax. And the best way for Felix to relax was to listen to his music. Ani Difranco, Enya, Fiona Apple- music that was surprisingly deep for this hyperactive boy.
Turning on the song 'Jukebox' by Ani Difranco, Felix relaxed his entier body against the cold stone ledge. He let the cold late-autumn breeze draft over his body and refused to think.
In the jukebox of her memories,
The list of names slips by and stops.
And she closes her eyes.
And smiles as the record drops.
Eventually though, once the music set him into a trance, his thoughts jumped to a certain brunette.
It was a rather odd situation. He had approached Toby like he approached everyone else. He was intrigued by his resistance, and was enlighted by the qualities that made him unique. This hadn't happened on numerous occasions, but even so it wasn't completely uncommon. What was really weird was that mental image... His thoughts never prioritized to that that would inply any romantic thoughts. He'd brushed it off as a fluke, but the next time they actually talked it happened again....
Sure, he teased people and used cheesy pick up lines. He liked to flirt! It wasn't his fault. Well, okay, it was, but it it was just so much fun! Just like kissing. He'd kissed numerous people, but those had just been for fun, or if the person looked particularly sad or lonely. Hell, he'd kissed people on request if they just told him straight forward what they wanted. Kissing wasn't a big deal to him. But when he thought about that and then thought about Toby... It just didn't seem to fit.
Toby was different. Toby made him want to wait for something special to happen. He didn't want it just to be for the fun of it, he wanted a connection with it. Which brought him to think, what connection?
Felix never once had a crush, or liked someone as more than a friend. This came to a shock to many people, but he'd just never been attracted to people on more then just inpulse. That's what he was starting to beleive made Toby so special.
Everyone he had ever been friends with started out liking them on inpulse, liking them a little more as he got to know them, then just kinda lost interest after a few conversations. He usually went threw people like books; read 'em once and never really pick them up again. It's not that he didn't really stop liking them, just that he never had any interest to stick with one thing for a long time. He was a little cruel like that. He would get to know multiple people in multiple diffrerent settings over a few days, then hop onto new people. If he ran into them again, they talked, but usually not for a long time unless they really needed someone to talk to, or wanted his opinion on something. He didn't really ask to be the 'leader of the pack', but people tended to come to him for advice.
He knew something had changed over the last few months, even before he met Toby. Gradually, he'd started feeling a little lonely. So he tried on new people, but friendship, for once, wasn't sufficing his need. He was wanting to get deeper, but he found out quickly that it did matter who he was learning about. For the first time in his life, Felix wanted more then just a kiss to satisfy impulsive attractions- more then a light chat to nully his talking needs. He wanted a deep relationship with someone that went both ways. He didn't even realize that that was considerd a romantic relationship.
And then Toby came along. Just like everyone else, up until that image came in. Then that feeling in his stomach that started the second time they talked. And now the boy seemed to be creeping into his thoughts more and more often, bringing with him that interesting emotion that was still in development.
Felix hadn't been realizing that all of these things could be linked until he had his meditation time. Which is what he was doing now, and it was helping alot.
So let's see if I can put this into a real thought, Felix thought to himself as he unconciously rolled his hips to the beat of 'Hat Shaped Hat'. I've never had a real lover before- and that girl in 3rd year doesn't count because I only did that becuase the guys wouldn't shut up about me not having a girlfriend. I've only really wanted one for the last month or so. Toby makes me feel different then anyone else I've talked to, even though he's not anything particularly special- at least, according to most people's special. Does that mean I want him to be my lover? Is it too soon to be thinking like that? It was true that he went threw people fast, but lovers must have a different timing standerd then friendship. After all, lovers usually lasted a very very long time, because married people where supose to be together until they die, and the longest he'd held onto a good friend was at max, a month. So after, what, 4 days, is it too soon to be even thinking like this? Well, you tell me. But I don't know! Then yes, yes it is.
Even though he was trying to convince himself of this, he knew that he didn't really know all the answers. But how would he find out if this was really all an odd train of thought to be having?
This brought on a whole new train of thought, and a new emotion. Shy. It had always been a foriegn word in the Vocabulary De Felix. He had always been a blunt boy, completely truthful in his own thoughts and fealings. Well, unless it was on the subject of someone else's weight or something, then he always softened the blow, but that was just a survival tactic in this emotion-dominate world- But that was a completely different issue.
Shy. Was that what made Felix nervous about asking the one person that he was most interested in at the moment these questions? It was an odd feeling, this shyness, and made him think twice about telling Toby straight forward what he'd been pondering for the last 20 minutes or so. Or had it been longer then that? He wasn't sure, but either way it wasn't the issue.
Maybe it was the fact that he had seen that Toby was a rather nervous person himself, and Toby would be the one in trouble if Felix voiced these thoughts. But what if it was worse if he kept things in? He didn't like keeping things in. It was too troublesome, and pent up thoughts always lead to negative emotions eventually. But what if he was just over thinking things? It was all horribley confusing.
And finally, Felix decided enough was enough. This was supose to be his time to relax, not worry himself over the start of odd emotions. It was his curiosity acting up again, and curiosity killed the cat, as he's been told on many occations. So, instead, he decided to pay attention to his music once again.
Letting a smile grace his face, he sung along the the new album that had come up while he muddled in thought. It was Enya now, on the peaceful song Wild Child.
Let the rain fall down
Everywhere around you
Give into it now
Let the day surround you
You don't need a reason
Let the rain go on and on
And so he would.
((Well! that took up the full wait time sweatdrop . Now back to the land of 34 degrees! Bye bye 80 degree weather. I wont see you again for 6 months crying ))
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 11:35 am
Nobody particularly enjoyed marching up to the seventh floor under any circumstances, so it was no surprise that none of Toby's fellow prefects had volunteered to patrol the area. That task fell onto him. And Toby liked it that way. The floor was generally quiet, riddled with a few offices and empty classrooms. The relatve emptiness of the floor made it a rather popular spot for snoggers and the like, who Toby found great pleasure in catching and reprimanding. The look on their faces was priceless and Toby secretly enjoyed dabbling in others' affairs.
Strolling along briskly, his wand in hand at his side, he revelled in the feeling of power. He found his prefect rounds the perfect setting to impose his authority. Checking each room on the corridor carefully, he found no one. Sighing, he came to an empty classroom, which was expected to be unoccupied for the remainder of term. Trying the handle, he found it locked. Ah hah. "Alohomora," he whispered, pointing his wand excitedly at the door. It clicked, unlocking at his incantation. He reached for the handle. What are the deviant children up to now? Flinging open the door, he found a single boy, seated at the window. "Oh, hey, Felix. What are you doing up here?"
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 12:11 pm
By this point, Felix had long ago fallen asleep at his post. He had probably been asleep for a good half hour before Toby had walked in. Unfortunatly, Felix wasn't the greatest morning person, even if it wasn't morning when he woke up.
When he heard Toby's voice break through the calming music and hazy mind, FeFe's first reaction wasn't the brightest. "Ngm. Five more minutes..." And proceeded to curl up in a ball and roll over on his side. Unfortunatly, it was the side that led to outside. Thankfully, the Dutch boy cracked an eye open to see Tree Tops a far ways down below him, and immediantly came to.
"HEILIG NEUKEN!" He screeched while 'gracefully' grabbing onto the windowsill and scrambling to get back up. He threw himself over the side of the wall and curled up in a ball on the floor, his eyes as wide as that of a cat who'd just been thrown into a bathtub. "Who put that 70 foot drop there?" He asked to no one in particular. Then, his mind quickly caught up with the current situation.
"Ik viel asleep..." He muttered to himself, switching languages as he glancing back up to the window before looking over to Toby. "Toblerone! You're the one that woke me up!" He realized happily. Noticing that his music was still playing- appropriatly enough to the song 'I Must Be Dreaming' by Frou Frou-, He quickly took out his headphones and pulled the muggle device out of his pocket. Turning the device off, he attempted to stand up to give the boy a proper greating, only to discover that his point of balance had been thrown off.
"Oh yeaaaaaah, blood circulation doesn't like being held at a certain angle..." He had fallen down to his knees and now his legs really didn't feel like moving. Not to mention his right arm and leg had been frozen to the bone due to the fact that they'd been held outside for who knows how long. Oh Bugger.
((Oh, and just so you know, FeFe's wearing just a normal slightly-baggy T-shirt with a studded green belt along with his black pants 3nodding ))
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 1:06 pm
Toby walked in, having witnessed the boy stir and then wake. "Uh... are you okay?" he said, approaching cautiously, "Y-you aren't supposed to be in here. And... that's dangerous!" He turned to shut the door and promptly, for no apparent reason, locked it. With a more advanced locking charm. "You're so lucky I caught you. What if a teacher had caught you? You would have been in heaps of trouble! Let alone you could have died." He came to the boy and paused next to him. Awkwardly reaching down, he grabbed the boy's arm and tried to help him up with much difficulty. "Sorry... I'm weak as hell." He slid his wand down inside his robes with ease, freeing his other arm. With added strength, he tried again, cringing at having to show his (lack) of strength. Why do I even try?
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 1:18 pm
If Felix had cat ears, they would be pressed back against his head to complete the pathetic look on his face. "Sorry," He said guiltily, "I just thought this would be a good place to be able to listen to my music..."
He blinked up at Toby as the taller boy attempted to pull him up. Unfortunatly, even if Toby was strong he would have trouble because when Felix was cold, he magically gained about 20 pounds.
"Umm, it's alright, though I may look like I'm a stick I'm actually pretty heavy. Here," He said quietly, still feeling guilty about being caught in an out of bounds room. He held Toby's fore-arms and used them to turn the other boy, guiding him to sit down next to him. Noticing how warm he was, Felix scooted himself so that his cold side would match up with Toby's body, leaning into him while trying not to cling too much.
"Warm..." he muttered, resting his head lightly against Toby's shoulder as foriegn heat soaked into him. "You're being temporarily claimed as a pillow." His voice was slower then usual, as he'd snapped out of shock and realized that his mind was still tired.
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 1:51 pm
Toby's embarassment was cleared at the touch of Felix's hand. Smiling, he joined him on the floor, soon finding himself something of a heat source. "Uh... sure..." Toby sat for a moment, tense, not knowing what to say or do. Then, his shoulders dropped suddenly and he took a more slouched position. Oh, what the hell. "But only if you don't mind if I snuggle too..." He draped his arm around the other boy's shoulder and leaned in to inhale a small whiff of the boy. The smell was pleasant to Toby, suggesting a clean, masculine source. He sighed and savoured the moment. Never in his wildest dreams did he ever imagine himself in such a place. However, after a few short minutes, insecurity crept in on the silence of the room. He felt a need to converse with the other boy. "So... Why are you so tired? It's only Monday..."
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 1:59 pm
Felix was, more to say, a little shocked that Toby actually offered to snuggle back. It made that feeling in his stomach well up again, and brought a blush to his face. Happily, he switched his headrest to be on Toby's collar bone and fisted a small section of Toby's uniform cutely. As his body began to defrost, Felix let out a content purr.
"S'not so much the day. I hadn't particularly planned on falling asleep, but that's what happens when I listen to my pretty music for too long..." He held up the ipod that was still in his not-so-frozen hand, and gave it a soft scowl. "Silly Enya. You're supose to be helping me think, not putting me to sleep..."
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 3:14 pm
Toby was eased by the sound of Felix's voice on his chest. "Hm. I see. Well. I guess you get what you deserve - sneaking up here and all... You do realize I'm going to have to compromise my morals because of you? I'm gonna be a corrupt prefect now. Have you any idea how that makes me feel?" he said light-heartedly. Thinking, he found it odd that Felix was alone in the room. "So what's on your mind? You aren't one to lock yourself away from the world. Surely you have friends somewhere seeking your company?"
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 3:45 pm
Felix chuckled as Toby played out the situation. "Yes yes, I'm so sorry I almost threw myself out a window due to your call of duity. What a poor and corrupt life you might lead now all because of me!" He said dramatically, holding the back of his hand to his forehead for a brief second to fake the feeling of faintness before giggling. Setting his ipod on the floor beside him, he comprehended Toby's questions. Felix snaked his right hand to lightly rest on the right side of Toby's neck and had his left hand grab a new cluster of fabric closer to Toby's waist, also on the left side.
He started with the later statements first. "Yes, I supose someone might be looking for me, but you found me first." He nuzzled into Toby's chest a little more at this before continuing. "And your right, I'm not one to lock myself away. Though it is the best way to collect my thoughts, of which I've been having a lot of interesting ones lately..."
He mused over the musing he had done earlier, realizing that all of his thinking didn't really lead him to any conclusion. Sighing slightly, he let his eyes close. He was curled up with the boy that'd been on his mind all day, and it felt like coming home from a long day of work. Or, something like that. Either way, it was something completely different then any of the other snuggle encounters he'd had with anyone, and was only growing onto that feeling he had in his stomach. And in that moment, he decided why not! I wont tell him everything, but at least give him hints.
After a moment, he got around to Toby's actual question. "What's on my mind..." He decided it would be safest to state it in a form of a question. "Is it considered odd to have never really be interested in people as more then friends up until recently?" That didn't sound so bad. But even so, Felix knew his reputation. Looking up at Toby, he gave a bit of a nervous laugh. "Sounds odd for me to be saying, right?"
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 9:13 pm
Toby laughed at the other boy's theatrics. "So long as you ackwowledge what you're guilty of." He smiled at the boy and sat still as Felix shifted his position beside him. He did not resist. Felix seemed to be acting rather strange. First, Toby had found him alone. Now, he was clinging to him, mellow-like and not his usual chipper self. Now, it seemed he was telling Toby something. "I must, say, it is strange. Given your reputation, you're quite the tart... You don't consider your random snog sessions 'more than friendly'? And... heavens know what else you've been up to." He said the last part with a giggle. "Naw, I'm kidding about that. But really, you've put yourself out there... How could you not have ever felt that way? And... why now?" Toby had an idea of what the other boy was implying. He wasn't completely oblivious to human behaviour, but he knew assuming things-especially when it came to people's feelings-was a mistake. And the thought that he might be right scared him.
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Posted: Sat Jan 06, 2007 10:11 pm
Felix gave an inward sigh of relief that the topic hadn't made Toby go all akward and fidgetty. He took his hand from Toby's neck and used it to hit Toby playfully when the other boy implied him doing more then just kissing. He decided to tuck that hand away under his left arm, realizing its prior possition probably seemed a bit too desperate.
"Well... Yeah, I know that they're considered more then friendly, but they where always just for fun. They where usually just used to cheer someone up or to get a reaction out of someone, nothin' more then that...And, hmm, what could I use to say it..." He tilted his head and looked up at the ceiling for a source of inspiration. "I dunno. I like to know new things about people, and since there's usually not much to know about one person, I get bored and want to talk to new people. Then when I learn about them, I go to other people and so on and so on. And I supose that might sound kinda mean, but I don't mean it to be. So maybe my mind's just getting sick of the same routine or something?" It was a rhetorical question, but he asked it aloud anyways. The thought of telling Toby that he was turning into the subject his social intrigue was looking for had slipped his mind. He had a rather confused look on his face, as his train of thought was at a stand still. "Does that kinda make sense? I dunno. Maybe..."
He tried to lean back, only to realize that he was still on his knees and his tendons didn't like to be stretched like that. With a quick shifting, he moved his legs to be out infront of them, dropping a few inches in hight comparison to Toby.
"And that train of thought is what lead me to be here, 'cause I'm usually the one to listen to other people's problems, not vice versa. But alone time isn't helping me much on this one, and the longer it goes unsolved the fuzzier my head gets and then I start acting weird like this and gahhhh," The once hyperactive Hufflepuff sank down even lower so that only the top of his head matched up with Toby's shoulder instead of his chin. "Toblerooooone, why is my brain deeeeeeaaaaad?"
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 10:16 am
Toby adressed Felix's first statement in a serious tone. "You sure have a strange notion of fun... " Having heard Felix express his confusion, he now took on an air of sincerity. "It does make sense. I guess it's because... you want something different. Something that genuinely interests you and that will hold your interest. You just haven't found your match, is all... But there's lots of time for that. You don't have to worry about it now." Toby wasn't completely confident in his statement, but it was how he himself felt at times. He looked down at the ground, scanning a small patch of dusty stone. "And it's okay to not know the answers all the time... I know you're used to being well-liked and stuff. Just talk to me. I think it'd do us both some good."
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 11:15 am
Felix listened contently to Toby's soothing words, making sure not to interrupt him until he was done. All the while, the feeling in his stomach extended out to his chest, and he almost was glowing by the time Toby said 'Just talk to me'. Realizing he was done, Felix curled up next to the other boy, basking in the new warmth that'd come over him.
"I... First off, thank you." He started quietly. "For listening. 'N you're right, I don't need to know all the answers, so I'll stop trying to muddle over it. 'N I will come to you when I need it, so long as it goes both ways." He looked up at Toby with confidence. "I'll come to you and you come to me when you have troubles, okay? I'm bad at the whole 'never had a lover' part, but pretty good at solving everything else!" He said in a more upbeat Felix-y fashion. Sitting up straighter now as the energy returned to him, he reached over Toby to pick up the muggle device he'd put on the floor. Then another thought came to him. "Oh, and for the record, I havent been able to kiss anybody for about a month now, so I'm pretty sure I'm breaking that hobby. And now~" He turned on the musical device and clicked thru it in an attempt to find something he liked. "Time to not worry. Where's my happy music..."
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Posted: Sun Jan 07, 2007 7:07 pm
Having finished his attempt at making Felix feel better, Toby listened to his response. He was glad to have had an effect in the boy. "Um.. yeah, sure," he replied, glad to see Felix back to his energetic self. I'm supposed to be the mopy one. And he's supposed to come save me. But in a way, Toby was glad to see that he was able to be of use to another. "So, what kind of stuff do you have on that thing?" he asked, eyeing the device. "Seems all the Muggle kids have one."
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