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There are times that this happpens exept not always table utencils. Either way my parents refuse to get me any proffessional help and i suffer for extreme depression they take out a bible and say to read it and they walk away.

it's not like that. but i do hear voices and noises that of which are not my own or of others and see things that no one else does and even though everyone laughs at me i know that... umm...nvm but i guess that it's just me being a young troubled child. Right?

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I'm just gonna post to back up [Kudzu] incase you start thinking only one person said it was a problem and so it's not worth seeing a doctor. Hallucinations can be caused by fairly minor problems (eg. lack of sleep), however they can also be caused by really major stuff (eg. organ failure). It's unlikely that it'll be someothing bad, imo, but it's worth checking!

I'm full blown stage 4 aspergers. Here's what I can tell you.

Parent's are stupid. Everything we do is drama and a cry for attention, and they want us to know that thats not how we get attention and they ignore us.

Yeah? Because of this "drama" and these "pleas for attention" they wouldn't take me to the hospital a few times. It wasn't until an ambulance was called to get me at school they they realized "Whoa whoa whoa...I didn't know teenagers were capable of being honest." Now I'm infertile and they listen to me.

The point is, when your depression does something to affect you later in life, they'll realize "damn....we screwed up."

How do you prevent that? Piss them off. Ask one of your parent's friends to take you to therapy. No better, a pastor. Tell them the truth-your parents are denying you healthcare and the problem is getting worse. They translate it as "she's telling people were bad parents" and do something about it. Works every time, believe me on this one, I've done it countless times...When I failed my drivers test because of my eyes, they took me to get an eye exam "just to shut her up" and I had full blown astigmatism. In your face, Sherry.

Tell them you think their being bad parents and if they wont help you, you'll find someone who will, then prove it.

So now our parents think were being dramatic?

Ask yourself...what have you ever done to make your parents think this?
I can't really do this, cause I got a new set of parents when I was 14, contacting my mom years later, there's no drama whatsoever, so I'm kinda going on auto pilot.

Now, have you got an answer? Ask yourself what you can do to make them un-think this?
If that does't work, ask them why their always right, and tell them their being abusive. Works every time. When I got one of my internet buddies (long time friends of course) to take me to the hospital (turns out, appendicitis) my dad was REALLY red in the face and my stepmom hated me. They were very relieved, but afterwards, they grounded me. I didn't feel punished at all. They were embarassed that I was right.

Update on the issue? Well let's see how this all came out. Umm I'm a very happy person now. I try my hardest not to let things get to me. I think that the reason I felt so bad back then was cuz I didnt know how to deal with all the things that had happened in the past. I think I let go of all that. Occasionally I remember and I cry cuz I feel bad. But I remember that that was then and this is now, things are diffrent now and nothing should be able to bring me down. I have ppl that love me and they care about me and they make sure that I'm ok. I know this sounds like I'm trying to convince myself of it but really i'm not. I do believe it. I dont lie to myself anymore b/c "it's better to be hated for who you are than to be loved for who you're not." There's a song by Ryan Shupe and the Rubberband. It's called Dream Big. That song keeps me up alot. It gives me hope and helps me when I feel down.

"When you cry be sure to dry your eyes, cuz better days are sure to come. And when you smile be sure to smile wide, and dont let them know they they've won. And when you walk walk with pride, and don't show the hurt inside, because the pain 'ill soon be gone. And when you dream dream big, as big as the ocean blue, cuz when you dream it might come true. And when you laugh laugh out loud, cause it will carry all your cares awy. And when you see, see the the beauty all around and in yourself, and it will help you feel okay. And when you pray, pray for strength to help carry on when the troubles come your way. When you dream dream big as big as the ocean blue."

Those words were inspiring to me, words that changed me in many ways. Things don't seem so hard when I have a positive outlook on life. A positive outlook on who I am and those around me. I think with the end in view and i dont give up anymore. I ask for help and I try whole heartedly to be happy with what I am. With what I have become. And I thank you all for contributing to the person I am now.

I would like to say thank you to you all again for helping me cope with hat I went through.