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How ironic. Im just posting about my journey to quit, and youre just picking it up. Newports are my smoke of choice, also.
Smoking is such a bad and addicting habit. And I dont think one should pick it up because someone thinks its 'hot'. I'll admit, I love watching my boyfriend smoke. It is sexy, and I get a kick out of it. But I hate that I enjoy watching him slowly kill himself. D;

Man. I could use a smoke right now..
Good thing I dont have any.
u_u

OK so I smoked 2 and 1/2 half ciggs to day...i hate winston...their ******** ashes...bleh...they hurt my throaght....I did smoke a newporte though ^^ so HAPPPPPPPPPPYYYYY@!!!! i have no more ciggaretes...and now i have to wait...till monday or hope to god my friends older brother who can leggaly buy them get us some...bleh theyll be winstons...but ill be desprate enougf to smoke those if i cant get my damn newportes....I REALLY like turkish silvers aND golds...those are pretty good too....Oh about being desprate I had my first really bad craving today....its officialy been 2 weeks of smoking...I still remember my first puff...on the patio of my freinds place...lol smile its so aoutoromanfiction...i think that the litterary term of coming of age spelled wrong...my mom pissed me off to day,...she tried to start a fight with me...i just looked at her like...what a child..becasue she kept trying to egg me on into being angry...so i just looked at her and said "Your pathetic" and laughfed...i couldnt get mad...knowing that i was smoking and that would piss her off even more wonderfully...ahahahahhahaahahah

ug...SO desprate today...i somoked half a newport....hal a winston..*bleh...half a kool...*did nothing for me....* i got the kool becasue me parents had a new years eve party and that was a desprate smokers dream of like half ciggorettes...woot...i smoked in the bath room...just turned the vent on...worked wonders....ill smoke in their during the night....bleh i feel better now...i just had to get some of that lovely toboaco in my system....*sigh*

Switch to Kools man, you'll love them. Plus they make you so much cooler. He he he. whee

You should switch to Newport Kings.
Same thing as 100's, just smaller. And well.. In all actuality, theyre not really smaller. The filter is just smaller. Makes you *think* youre smoking less. D;

The guy IS your dealer. It is illegal to sell cigarettes to person's under the age of 18, regardless of whether or not its in a store. Nicotine is a drug. A drug that is illegal for minors. Therefore, you, my good sir, are a criminal. xD

Just joshing.. But it is illegal. ;3
No worries. I started smoking when I was younger, as well.

BUD HUNTING!!!!
Woo. I just smoked the last of my bud with mi novio today. It was decent. Ive had WAAAAY better, and Ive had worse. So.

So..If all goes well today I should have 2 packs of newports by tomorow....my dealer is giving em to me tomorow....iv got my money all ready....$10.....2 packs of newports and 1 pack of winstons for my friend...He gave me an advance though...he gave me 3 of his newports to hold me over till tomorow...I smoked one after diving practice....smoked another after i got home...and tonight ill smoke another one in my bathroom while im taking my shower....damn I can wait to have my own pack...its so much more security then " Hey can i have a ciggorette...?" thats even if they smoke or have any themselves....so I havent had a REALLy bad craving...not since sunday....but I do feel it when I need another one..expessially now..i smell ciigy smoke and it smells...desiciouss and makes me want one..my heart kida starts racing and i get annoyed really bad...and finnally i just go in hunt for one...my parents are fighting alot since the car broke down and school is getting to be overwhelming...so my rainbow is all I have left to keep me even A little saine...bleh...Ill have enoughf ciggys for like 2 months and even before those 2 months pass I'll collect my money to buy another pack...The point of this all is to make sure I never hit empty...Although I read "The scarlet Ibis" made me think about how much I valued life...and how much the childern did...hmm...anyways my "dealer" if you will is like 22 and hes pretty nice...I got him through a contact who had used him al the time...I didnt tell him where I lived or where I go though...hell its only ciggarettes...im sure he wont beat me up or kill me over that...but still..it just didnt seem appropriatte...Its really strictly at school....so this has been it for today.,..nothing new to report....

DAMNIT!!!!!!!! DAMNIT!!!!!DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!

So I got my smokes at school today from my "dealer"...but apparantly the principle saw me talking to em...so later she called me to her office and told me to empty my bag right in front of her...i was like "w...t...f..." so I did and sure enoughf all three packs landed on her desk WITH my lighter!!! ********!!!!! so anyways I though she was gona throw the book at me...give me a find and suspend me...but she didnt...it was weird...he exact words were "I dont care if you smoke Ty...my daughter smokes...but you cant bring that sort of stuff here" then she took one of my ciggs..lit it..smoked it...told me It would be ok this time but i wa sgoining on her "List of people to watch" i was ******** speechless...i was just like...w///t///f///i couldnt even say anything...just wagtch in amazement... and then put my ciggs in her desk...i was just like..." w....t....f...." so now i have to get my ciggs all over again..and not to mention i have not had one today so im already pissed becasue i havent even had one smoke to day like planed...i feel like crap...DAMINT!!!DAMNIT!!!!DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!