Hun, life is pretty hard if it hasn't hit you yet, and honestly it'll only get harder.
There are plenty of times when I don't feel... normal, or everything is off.
I just posted a blog on myspace about it actually. xD;
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But anyway. You're not alone, Time heals and with time you'll learn more about yourself and who you want to become. You may not know right now, but it'll get to you when the time is right. Just always keep your head up and never stop trying.