Poem
Porcelain Doll
Uselessly lying around
like she had been used too many times
that little doll
cries to herself beneath the toy chest
and she wipes her rouge cheeks,
smearing the crimson paint
Dust gathers on more than her skin
her heart lies in ruins
shattered like the other doll near her feet
broken so many times
Played with too much
living for too many years
She pulls her strawberry artificial hair out
tugs on her navy blue velvet skirt
she dares not sit up
for fear of cracking her porcelain skull
No one wants to hold her
Or put her on display on a shelf
The doll lies forgotten beneath the toy chest
Not heard from again
Not until spring cleaning
when someone picks the little doll up
she feels a moment of hope
Only to realize today is trash day.
Uselessly lying around
like she had been used too many times
that little doll
cries to herself beneath the toy chest
and she wipes her rouge cheeks,
smearing the crimson paint
Dust gathers on more than her skin
her heart lies in ruins
shattered like the other doll near her feet
broken so many times
Played with too much
living for too many years
She pulls her strawberry artificial hair out
tugs on her navy blue velvet skirt
she dares not sit up
for fear of cracking her porcelain skull
No one wants to hold her
Or put her on display on a shelf
The doll lies forgotten beneath the toy chest
Not heard from again
Not until spring cleaning
when someone picks the little doll up
she feels a moment of hope
Only to realize today is trash day.
Poem
Shell
White and gleaming
Pearly insides resound with ocean waves
heard only by me
with my ear pressed against its mouth
straining to hear the faint splashes
when all I hear are screams
I dropped the shell in the sand
thankful it did not break
I gently take it in my arms
and caress the ridges with loving care
I take it with me when I leave
I never noticed its flaws
The shell stayed at home with me
and made me smile for days
It quieted my restless fears and
soothed the sharp pains in my heart
Until, one day, I noticed the shell was chipped
when my thumb was sliced
and I bled for a moment
The shell smiled back at me, apologizing
for causing an injury to me
I never noticed its flaws
The beauty of the shell entranced me
I was dizzy in love
light headed, light hearted
I was ebullient in my situation
Until, one day, the shell cut me again
It tore through my palm and fell
to the floor, shattering into a million and a half pieces
A million and a half pieces of my heart
Lay on the ground
Broken and bloody
The shell laughed at me, taunting me
for my foolishness
as I bled next to the shattered conch
I realized it couldn't be love
because I never noticed its flaws
White and gleaming
Pearly insides resound with ocean waves
heard only by me
with my ear pressed against its mouth
straining to hear the faint splashes
when all I hear are screams
I dropped the shell in the sand
thankful it did not break
I gently take it in my arms
and caress the ridges with loving care
I take it with me when I leave
I never noticed its flaws
The shell stayed at home with me
and made me smile for days
It quieted my restless fears and
soothed the sharp pains in my heart
Until, one day, I noticed the shell was chipped
when my thumb was sliced
and I bled for a moment
The shell smiled back at me, apologizing
for causing an injury to me
I never noticed its flaws
The beauty of the shell entranced me
I was dizzy in love
light headed, light hearted
I was ebullient in my situation
Until, one day, the shell cut me again
It tore through my palm and fell
to the floor, shattering into a million and a half pieces
A million and a half pieces of my heart
Lay on the ground
Broken and bloody
The shell laughed at me, taunting me
for my foolishness
as I bled next to the shattered conch
I realized it couldn't be love
because I never noticed its flaws
Poem
Watch Out for Stone Puddles
Soon enough
It'll all come crashing down
Rocks falling from the sky
Throwing themselves at her skull
The pebble drops hit roofs and fall to the ground
Through the gutters, in the streams
Watch out for the stone puddles
Of onyx and quartz
Aesthetic disaster awaits her
As the pain from the rocks in her head
Grows evermore severe and intense
She forgets to look before she leaps
Oh! and into the puddle of black and translucent beauty
That only brings forth the gloom hidden
in her heart
Tricked by the malicious, enticing trance of halcyon days
Presented by the puddles, she is lied to
Once again
She failed to see the hell beneath the heaven
And drowned in her puddle
Soon enough
It'll all come crashing down
Rocks falling from the sky
Throwing themselves at her skull
The pebble drops hit roofs and fall to the ground
Through the gutters, in the streams
Watch out for the stone puddles
Of onyx and quartz
Aesthetic disaster awaits her
As the pain from the rocks in her head
Grows evermore severe and intense
She forgets to look before she leaps
Oh! and into the puddle of black and translucent beauty
That only brings forth the gloom hidden
in her heart
Tricked by the malicious, enticing trance of halcyon days
Presented by the puddles, she is lied to
Once again
She failed to see the hell beneath the heaven
And drowned in her puddle
Poem
Betrayal
Sitting back up and brushing her hair from her forehead
She feels a warm kiss on her cheek
But cannot see the kisser in the pitch blackness
That seems to swallow the two
She lays back down, feeling her head lay on a chest
A chest that rises and falls in a rhythmic pattern
Arms wrap themselves around her
As they do, she knows someone else is watching
Someone she loves is watching her make love
To another--twice that time
And made her cry, knowing she's a liar
Through her teeth she tells half truths and whole lies
Pretending last night didn't happen
To a loving face and a warm embrace
She falls back yet again into a web of lies
Back to betrayal
She finds herself once again
With her head upon another's chest
And that rhythmic breathing beneath her
The arms around her...so lovingly, so warmly
She knows she's helping rip this all apart
Sitting back up and brushing her hair from her forehead
She feels a warm kiss on her cheek
But cannot see the kisser in the pitch blackness
That seems to swallow the two
She lays back down, feeling her head lay on a chest
A chest that rises and falls in a rhythmic pattern
Arms wrap themselves around her
As they do, she knows someone else is watching
Someone she loves is watching her make love
To another--twice that time
And made her cry, knowing she's a liar
Through her teeth she tells half truths and whole lies
Pretending last night didn't happen
To a loving face and a warm embrace
She falls back yet again into a web of lies
Back to betrayal
She finds herself once again
With her head upon another's chest
And that rhythmic breathing beneath her
The arms around her...so lovingly, so warmly
She knows she's helping rip this all apart
Poem
Three Feet
(Song that relates to "Betrayal")
You don't know me anymore.
You're just blind to all of this
Just ignore the moans and the groans
[chorus]
Of your lover and I, three feet from the place you sleep
We know that you can hear us, we know how it tears you up inside
Do you know now...how badly he's been burned?
But hey--dear friend, you cheat on all of your loves.
Why can't he?
You should be able to handle this, you're used to the concept of "affair"
Get used to this treatment, cheater
He and I want vindication
--
You just want to run and hide
Just cover your eyes--stay blind
Tell yourself "It's okay in my shoes"
[chorus]
But not for your lover and I, three feet from the place you sleep
We know that you can hear us, we know how it tears you up inside
Do you know now...how badly he's been burned?
But hey--dear friend, you cheat on all of your loves.
Why can't he?
You should be able to handle this, you're used to the concept of "affair"
Get used to this treatment, cheater
He and I want vindication
--
You sense it when he arches my back
You sob softly into your pillow
Dear, it's what you do all of the time
[chorus]
To your lover and I, three feet from the place you sleep
We know that you can hear us, we know how it tears you up inside
Do you know now...how badly he's been burned?
But hey--dear friend, you cheat on all of your loves.
Why can't he?
You should be able to handle this, you're used to the concept of "affair"
Get used to this treatment, cheater
He and I want vindication
--
Now you say you want it to end
Telling and begging him "Never again"
He still leaves you behind for me
[chorus]
Yeah, that's your lover and I, three feet from the place you sleep
We want you to hear us, we want you torn up inside
We want you to know how badly it burns
But hey--dear friend, will you still cheat on all of your loves?
Let him be!
You don't want to handle this and you're sick of the affairs
You don't want the treatment, but you're still a cheater
We want vindication
--
Now it's over
His arms are wrapped tightly around something we call "loyalty"
Do you see now?
[chorus]
My lover and I, peacefully together asleep
No longer do you hear us and you're still torn up inside
Now friend, you know how badly it burns
But hey--dear friend, will you still earn bad karma?
Keep cheating?
Handle it. No more affairs for us
Take the treatment, cheater. Always that way
We're vindicated.
(Song that relates to "Betrayal")
You don't know me anymore.
You're just blind to all of this
Just ignore the moans and the groans
[chorus]
Of your lover and I, three feet from the place you sleep
We know that you can hear us, we know how it tears you up inside
Do you know now...how badly he's been burned?
But hey--dear friend, you cheat on all of your loves.
Why can't he?
You should be able to handle this, you're used to the concept of "affair"
Get used to this treatment, cheater
He and I want vindication
--
You just want to run and hide
Just cover your eyes--stay blind
Tell yourself "It's okay in my shoes"
[chorus]
But not for your lover and I, three feet from the place you sleep
We know that you can hear us, we know how it tears you up inside
Do you know now...how badly he's been burned?
But hey--dear friend, you cheat on all of your loves.
Why can't he?
You should be able to handle this, you're used to the concept of "affair"
Get used to this treatment, cheater
He and I want vindication
--
You sense it when he arches my back
You sob softly into your pillow
Dear, it's what you do all of the time
[chorus]
To your lover and I, three feet from the place you sleep
We know that you can hear us, we know how it tears you up inside
Do you know now...how badly he's been burned?
But hey--dear friend, you cheat on all of your loves.
Why can't he?
You should be able to handle this, you're used to the concept of "affair"
Get used to this treatment, cheater
He and I want vindication
--
Now you say you want it to end
Telling and begging him "Never again"
He still leaves you behind for me
[chorus]
Yeah, that's your lover and I, three feet from the place you sleep
We want you to hear us, we want you torn up inside
We want you to know how badly it burns
But hey--dear friend, will you still cheat on all of your loves?
Let him be!
You don't want to handle this and you're sick of the affairs
You don't want the treatment, but you're still a cheater
We want vindication
--
Now it's over
His arms are wrapped tightly around something we call "loyalty"
Do you see now?
[chorus]
My lover and I, peacefully together asleep
No longer do you hear us and you're still torn up inside
Now friend, you know how badly it burns
But hey--dear friend, will you still earn bad karma?
Keep cheating?
Handle it. No more affairs for us
Take the treatment, cheater. Always that way
We're vindicated.
Poem
Ghost
The reality sets heavy upon her like death upon a corpse
And the pillows are salty; the tissues gone
she cools her face in cold ice water and dries her eyes
with shaking hands
She fears for her life, it's out of control
And down the drain
Faster than a tornado of shower water
she sits in the dark and sleeps no more
A knife in her hand, a pen in the other
Hunched over, with no light
She writes and writes of fears
She thought she left behind so long ago
Malevolent haunts that swoop upone her unexpecting soul
When she is so weak
Tender, vulnerable
How, she asks her self, could I become so enervated by one person?
She shivers and throws her pen across the room, and hears it clatter
Like that time, like every time before
When that ghost catches up with her
And strikes fear in her fragile heart
Always so fragile, so delicate is she when the ghost attacks
Its sharpened claws reaching out
She puts her faith in it against her better judgement
She has no one else to protect her and she can barely protect herself
So she lets the haunt embrace her again
Knowing she doesn't want it
But wants comfort, and someone
When no one else is there, the ghost comes
And takes her away
She lays her hand in its clawed limb, suddenly expecting peace
As soon as the thought forms
She feels a pain and hears a deafening roar in her ears
The nefarious traitor has sunk its claws
Deep into her flesh
And sink deeper still when she tries to pull away
Blood spurts from the wounds on her arm but
It doesn't seem to want to stop
Flowing forth from injuries of more than physical pain
Her body becomes limp, her face pallid and gaunt
Against the sharp blackness
She knows, again, that she's failed.
The reality sets heavy upon her like death upon a corpse
And the pillows are salty; the tissues gone
she cools her face in cold ice water and dries her eyes
with shaking hands
She fears for her life, it's out of control
And down the drain
Faster than a tornado of shower water
she sits in the dark and sleeps no more
A knife in her hand, a pen in the other
Hunched over, with no light
She writes and writes of fears
She thought she left behind so long ago
Malevolent haunts that swoop upone her unexpecting soul
When she is so weak
Tender, vulnerable
How, she asks her self, could I become so enervated by one person?
She shivers and throws her pen across the room, and hears it clatter
Like that time, like every time before
When that ghost catches up with her
And strikes fear in her fragile heart
Always so fragile, so delicate is she when the ghost attacks
Its sharpened claws reaching out
She puts her faith in it against her better judgement
She has no one else to protect her and she can barely protect herself
So she lets the haunt embrace her again
Knowing she doesn't want it
But wants comfort, and someone
When no one else is there, the ghost comes
And takes her away
She lays her hand in its clawed limb, suddenly expecting peace
As soon as the thought forms
She feels a pain and hears a deafening roar in her ears
The nefarious traitor has sunk its claws
Deep into her flesh
And sink deeper still when she tries to pull away
Blood spurts from the wounds on her arm but
It doesn't seem to want to stop
Flowing forth from injuries of more than physical pain
Her body becomes limp, her face pallid and gaunt
Against the sharp blackness
She knows, again, that she's failed.
Poem
For you
Crying alone again
In the shadow of another
Tell me you love me
I will give up my everything
for you
She is just so much more
Than I could ever give
But you know, love,
She lies about everything
to you
Barely standing
Will you be my cane?
Tell me you want me
I will leave it all behind
for you
Her heart plays so sweetly
The notes deceive you
Honey, do you believe her?
She fakes it all the time in front
of you
I am still shaking
From the passion you give me
Just tell me you need me
I promise to always be there
for you
How can she surpass me?
Her and all her lying vices
She is only using you
For her selfish reasons, not
for you
I have fallen in love
Can you not see me
In all of my misery?
Tell me you love me
Honey, please. I will do it
for you.
Crying alone again
In the shadow of another
Tell me you love me
I will give up my everything
for you
She is just so much more
Than I could ever give
But you know, love,
She lies about everything
to you
Barely standing
Will you be my cane?
Tell me you want me
I will leave it all behind
for you
Her heart plays so sweetly
The notes deceive you
Honey, do you believe her?
She fakes it all the time in front
of you
I am still shaking
From the passion you give me
Just tell me you need me
I promise to always be there
for you
How can she surpass me?
Her and all her lying vices
She is only using you
For her selfish reasons, not
for you
I have fallen in love
Can you not see me
In all of my misery?
Tell me you love me
Honey, please. I will do it
for you.
Poem
Speak now, or forever hold your peace.
Will you ever love me?
Play not with my fragile heart
Shards are falling
With every step closer to me you make
Dare you not come closer
Inch yourself away
Please do this to me no more
I cannot cry with ducts so evaporated
Speak now, or forever hold your peace.
Must you play with me?
Twist me around your finger
So tightly, so closely
Sing to me again, darling
You know that I love it when you do
So stop bending me, head over heels
In love with you
I cannot touch you ever again
Speak now, or forever hold your peace
Baby, need you speak so sweetly?
Caress me so gently
Give me gooseflesh all along my back
Kiss me with fiery passion
Behind which lies love
We cannot do this anymore
There are too many lies sewn into our quilt
Let me know when you have made up your mind
Speak now, or forever hold your peace
Do you want me with you?
Hold my hand again
But only if you want to stay by my side
Honey will you live like this?
In such a terrible situation
Dare you break someone's heart
For me and only me, baby
I cannot do this unless you
Speak now, or forever hold your peace.
Dear, you know I love you
Can you stand for me?
Please do this with me, not for me
I only want you now
Snuggle with me like you did before
Intertwine your fingers with mine
Let me rest my head upon your shoulder
Tell me you love me again
Speak now, or forever hold your peace.
Will you ever love me?
Play not with my fragile heart
Shards are falling
With every step closer to me you make
Dare you not come closer
Inch yourself away
Please do this to me no more
I cannot cry with ducts so evaporated
Speak now, or forever hold your peace.
Must you play with me?
Twist me around your finger
So tightly, so closely
Sing to me again, darling
You know that I love it when you do
So stop bending me, head over heels
In love with you
I cannot touch you ever again
Speak now, or forever hold your peace
Baby, need you speak so sweetly?
Caress me so gently
Give me gooseflesh all along my back
Kiss me with fiery passion
Behind which lies love
We cannot do this anymore
There are too many lies sewn into our quilt
Let me know when you have made up your mind
Speak now, or forever hold your peace
Do you want me with you?
Hold my hand again
But only if you want to stay by my side
Honey will you live like this?
In such a terrible situation
Dare you break someone's heart
For me and only me, baby
I cannot do this unless you
Speak now, or forever hold your peace.
Dear, you know I love you
Can you stand for me?
Please do this with me, not for me
I only want you now
Snuggle with me like you did before
Intertwine your fingers with mine
Let me rest my head upon your shoulder
Tell me you love me again
Speak now, or forever hold your peace.
Poem
Think Again, Darling.
I thought I was good enough
I guess I was wrong
I thought I could make things work
Make things okay
I guess I was wrong
[Chorus]
It's only a matter of time before I fall
Without your loving arms to catch me
Sweetie, I never told you
What burnt me so long ago
So don't think for a moment that you know me
Think again, darling
I thought I could make it through
I guess I was wrong
I thought I heard you laughing
Are you okay?
I guess I was wrong
[Chorus]
I thought I saw a smile on those lips
I guess I was wrong
I thought I knew all that was to be known
Boiling beneath it
I guess I was wrong
[Chorus]
I thought I could love you
I guess I was wrong...
I thought I was good enough
I guess I was wrong
I thought I could make things work
Make things okay
I guess I was wrong
[Chorus]
It's only a matter of time before I fall
Without your loving arms to catch me
Sweetie, I never told you
What burnt me so long ago
So don't think for a moment that you know me
Think again, darling
I thought I could make it through
I guess I was wrong
I thought I heard you laughing
Are you okay?
I guess I was wrong
[Chorus]
I thought I saw a smile on those lips
I guess I was wrong
I thought I knew all that was to be known
Boiling beneath it
I guess I was wrong
[Chorus]
I thought I could love you
I guess I was wrong...
Poem
Crave.
You amaze me with your eyes
So deep and pure
Crystal ice castles lie beneath them
I want to know
What else doth lie there?
The warmth against my back
Turn me over
Let me feel it against my belly
Against my chest
Against my heart
Let my fingers wander
Through the darkness of the night
You smile a little
And make no sound
I've never loved silence more
Speak no more
Not like they do
Thou hast only to glance
And I am enervated summarily
In your embrace
Make silence with me again
Let us repeat our actions
Our mistakes
Whatever you wish to name it
I crave you again
You amaze me with your eyes
So deep and pure
Crystal ice castles lie beneath them
I want to know
What else doth lie there?
The warmth against my back
Turn me over
Let me feel it against my belly
Against my chest
Against my heart
Let my fingers wander
Through the darkness of the night
You smile a little
And make no sound
I've never loved silence more
Speak no more
Not like they do
Thou hast only to glance
And I am enervated summarily
In your embrace
Make silence with me again
Let us repeat our actions
Our mistakes
Whatever you wish to name it
I crave you again
PAGE TWO
Poem
Flower Petals
Sweet succulent tastes upon my tongue
Sending seizure-like messages down my spine
Yet shards of glass pierce my lungs
And my feet entangle and I fall out of line
Here I am again, amongst the lilies and the roses
The daises, the lilacs, the petunias are in full bloom
All that I've been contorted for into grotesque poses
Has been overshadowed by a heavy gloom
Crack! Crack! goes my broken and and skull
As the glass travels and the flowers petals drift
Like I drift into a limbo, a pause, a halt, a lull
And come full stop, because I can no longer lift
Myself and my heart above the betrayal of my own
I knew she loved me the last few seasons
But how would I ever reveal myself when I'm scared of being alone?
Poor dear, she doesn't know, but I have my reasons
Dearest love of my mine, you're more than you know
For the last life I've lived so very recently
I've been broken too hard a time, my heart's on show
I'm not sure I can love her decently
Sweet succulent tastes upon my tongue
Sending seizure-like messages down my spine
Yet shards of glass pierce my lungs
And my feet entangle and I fall out of line
Here I am again, amongst the lilies and the roses
The daises, the lilacs, the petunias are in full bloom
All that I've been contorted for into grotesque poses
Has been overshadowed by a heavy gloom
Crack! Crack! goes my broken and and skull
As the glass travels and the flowers petals drift
Like I drift into a limbo, a pause, a halt, a lull
And come full stop, because I can no longer lift
Myself and my heart above the betrayal of my own
I knew she loved me the last few seasons
But how would I ever reveal myself when I'm scared of being alone?
Poor dear, she doesn't know, but I have my reasons
Dearest love of my mine, you're more than you know
For the last life I've lived so very recently
I've been broken too hard a time, my heart's on show
I'm not sure I can love her decently
