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I've been working at a place that I don't consider my cup of tea for over 3 years now. Often times I go home crying. My husband in that time has had one job off and on that he doesn't really enjoy either. He finally got fed up with his boss and decided to apply at a similar business elsewhere. Because I make more then him, a rate that I would not be able to attain elsewhere, I don't get to seek alternate choices for myself. I'm stuck. My husband keeps trying to lure me into convincing him to take the new job by asking me questions about it and being all paranoid. I don't know what to say. In reality, I'm jealous that he can so easily move from job to job without it affecting our lifestyle. I wish I could do it, but I can't. I'm the bread winner. It's really hard for me because, had it just been myself, I'd have employment that better contributed to my state of mind. But it's not, so everytime I want to say something at work to defend myself or speak out or see a job I would really like in the paper I have to stop to think, "How will this affect our money?".

I want my husband to be happy. I want him to be happy more then just about anything, but I feel so trapped that part of me can't be fully happy for him about this. Part of that stems from us losing money in his last employment venture, but most of it from Jealousy.

Help me?

Funny thing happened with that. Before I could get a chance to tell him (cause I felt way guilty for feeling it) I called and told my mom about it. She got SOOOO excited by it, that it got me excited by it. She brought up a lot of really cool points that handn't occured to me about it's benefits and then they lied to him and he decided not to take it. But it turned me around from being jealous of him to being supportive of him. I love moms, sometimes they just say exactly what you need, exactly when you need it even if they didn't know you needed it. Momdar.