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Sephiroth Incarcina Night
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 Posted: Tue Mar 06, 2007 11:32 pm
i've developed a personal problem with my energies i sup[pose. i feel as though im being controlled. i have a ravaging intinct to kill, maim and absorb angry things. and the more i try to contorl it, the bigger the sense grows. its getting intense for me to handle it and remain in control. there have been times where i relinquished myself to it momentarily and i noticed the energy that was put out turned the area around me ( about fifteen feet diameter sphere) an inky black color. i now that this is not me but im confused and troubled as how to co-exist with it i do not destroy but rather tend to invite peace. and i feel as though what im doing makes myself put more energy into it. my times of peace range nw only when im talking to people i used to trust
it all began with a broken seal i plaed when i was young VERYyoung. say around for or five.
the seal i placed was made of the purest gold and influental peaceful and protective colors and magicks. i made it to protect me from all intruding and basic attacks. it worked up ntil december, late november 2005. when it subsequently burst into flames, notifying me with its alarming prsence. i smelled sulfur, saw the blooodiest malignant red, sensed destruction hunger for pain devastation blood and destruction of each, and could only feel the urge to kill. it took me minutes to calm the effect and just recently i have been able to erect a somewhat similar token, though not as strong. the first one had many lost spells and magicks upon it which i doubt i will find again. my thing is that which i have described comes across to me as a great evil that is currently attmepting to inhabit my ara i refuse it, and it grows stronger. almost like a seriously peaceful way of saying ' im taking over, you can do it the easy way, or the fun way' and its not onl distracting but making me worry like all heck. i fear losing to this and if i can get a hold of it..and remove it from me, i worry for others. and and all help would be greatly appreciated.
partly because this is the second time i've dealt with this thing.
and the first time it was not supposed to come back, and yet it did.
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Posted: Wed Mar 07, 2007 2:47 pm
humn..this original charm, you said you made it when you were very young? Tne am I right in assuming you've been raised in a family practicing magick? And the seal broke...over a year ago? thus this has been going on since then?
Anyways, this .. thing. i suggest purifying your room or whereever you spend a great deal of time. Ground and center...do some sort of meditation, protect yourself mentelly, and go in. Deep. Im sure you'll be on equal grounds with it; remember thats this is /your/ body. Communication would be good, find out what it wants. since Im sure your ideals and goals are not in align, try to force him out. guess this is redundant because you have probably already tried. but try again. if you cant dont be afraid to invoke .. whatever you call upon, and believe in.
btw, what kind of things do you specialize in?
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Sephiroth Incarcina Night
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 8:39 am
i just happened to find out what langauge the sigils around the medallion/talisman were, and they appear to be theban. a langauge i did not physically know existed. im going to study so that i can make a better one.
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Posted: Fri Mar 09, 2007 5:09 pm
theban was 'discovered' in 1518 with Johannes Trithemius' Polygraphia (which is a book). Anyways, it's often linked to the Hebrew angels and is very powerful indeed. I've studied only a bit about it though. The characters are pretty complicated though if you take the time to learn them it'll be worth it.
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