So I've known this girl for a while. Let's call her Karin. My friend introduced me to her about a two years ago. Now I don't believe it was a love at first sight thing, but we started talking quickly and within two months I started crushing. I would talk to her whenever I had a free moment. For the first time, I really felt like I was in love with someone.
We go to different schools, so we see each other very little, but we talk a lot on the phone and online. Finally, Karin told me she had liked me since we met, lifting my spirits. I asked her out, but she said she had a boyfriend already. My lifted spirits crushed.
She had given me some hope. Apparently, things had not gone well; he didn't do anything with her, rarely paid attention, and was kind of stupid. Karin decided she was going to break up with him. Although saddened things did not work out, I had another shot. Two weeks later I asked her out again. She said she wasn't ready to commit to anything yet.
I couldn't win. I kept talking to Karin, trying to get her to go out with me while still being myself. Yet, on MySpace (I got bored, so kill me) I read many bulletins on guys she liked at her school. Guys she kept questioning why they wouldn't ask her out.
What the hell? I thought to myself. She says she isn't ready to commit, yet she's looking for a boyfriend anyway? What gives? I've run this through again and again and again. It's so frustrating I literally can't sleep at night. I truly love this girl, but I feel like she's just leading me on. Now I just don't know what to believe anymore.
Please, somebody help me...I'm desperate.
~Swift
